[Moreta]

Got out of the hospital on Moday after an inpatient stay. The docs think that between a bad reaction to prednisone and PMS, I just lost my mind. I couldn't deal anymore, so I just went to the hospital. They increased my geodon and added haldol as a prn. Feel slightly better. Was gonna lose it in the hospital, so they gave me a vistiril and I slept for 2 days. I also think they double dosed me one of the days, but I was so out of it, I can't be sure. I ended up reading 2 books while in, and can say that James Patterson is a horrible author. The nurse staff was good the first day and took out time to talk to me when I was freaking out. The rest of the days the nursing staff sucked. Just there to pass out meds. I only went to 1 group while in. Not of a fan of the groups, especially with the psychologist that's there. He's kind of a ****. I've been to this hospital 3 times now, so I know.

I got super overwhelmed yesterday, so I just hope that's still the rest of the prednisone getting out of my system. I was stable for 7 months, want to get back to that. Not used to feeling so funky.

I told my boss and the rep who works for the company I'm contracted with at work, and they were understanding and told me to take it easy this week. I just want to work. I hate not being able to do it. They told me to rest and if I needed help to ask them. Could've went much worse, which it has in the past. Glad it didn't this time. Didn't tell them I was bipolar, just that I had a reaction to meds, so hopefully that can't come back to bite me.

[Wander]

Sorry to hear you had to go IP but glad you are feeling a little better. Group therapy is always so dependent on the facilitators. Bummer you didn't have a good psychologist for those. Thanks for the heads up on James Patterson, I will try to avoid his novels

It will take time for you to stablise now but I hope it happens soon for you. Great to hear you had seven months stable. that is an achievement. Be kind and gentle on yourself as you recover. I wish you all the best.

I hope you can stay stable, I've been out 2 and a half weeks now, but I feel Im getting worse again. My bf has been too nice, and enabled me to be a lazy f*cker with cleaning and cooking. I feel so guilty.

[Moreta]

I feel like a lazy sack of **** too. I hurt my back 4 weeks ago and still can't do anything. Part of why I went into the hospital, cause I couldn't take it anymore. I feel guilty too, but there's not much I can do about it.

I'm sorry to hear about this episode, but you made me smile. I think James Patterson is a terrible author, too. He is so popular, though.

I had a bad reaction to prednisone once and got really scared at the impulsive sui thoughts that started randomly popping in my head, like when I was driving. That was as far as it went with me, but it was still scary.

Aw, I hate to hear that you feel guilty. It's not like you went on a spa weekend.

[Moreta]

Had a god damn anxiety attack tonight. wtf is wrong with me?

[cashart10]

There is nothing wrong with you! Mental illness just deeply sucks! I'm sorry you are in a bad way and I'm glad you decided to go IP. I hope you are back in that 7 month pattern soon!