[seacrets2life]

Has anyone lost a long term marriage (27 years here) to your Bipolar 2-hypomanic/hypersexual infidelity? My husband can no longer take the roller coaster ride and has lost all trust in me since I admitted to cheating more than a few times. We've been separated 9 months, tried to reconcile monthly, did counseling, but I still wasn't stable so nothing worked. I was finally diagnosed 4 months ago (finally an answer to WHY??) and with a mood stabilizer I now feel like a different person, but he says it's too late. I truly feel like I could finally be the wife I always wanted to be, but he can't take any more hurt, which I of course understand after all I've done. I have no self esteem left, no friends, and will carry the shame of hurting a very good man who didn't deserve it for the rest of my life. Bipolar feels like a death sentence right now.

[~Christina]

I'm sorry that your going through such a hard time, Maybe your husband needs some time to think about things?

Meanwhile focus on yourself and finding stability. Are you seeing a Therapist? If not please do, You need help building up your self esteem and learning to cope.

Welcome to PC

[Crazy Hitch]

I'm really sorry to hear this seacrets I feel for you, honestly I do.

You're in a difficult situation, and it's such a pity that you didn't get your diagnosis sooner.

I really can't blame you, all factors considered, for saying Bipolar feels like a death sentence right now.

I think it's so apt that you used the word "now".

Because situations can and do change. Sometimes when we least expect it.

You're doing everything within your means that you can possibly do right now to rectify this and I'm sorry that your partner is still that upset that it's currently making any kind of reconcilliation possible, at this present time.

I wish for you that whatever transpires of this whole situation, it will be the one that serves in your best interests in the long run.

Thinking of you

[Killian Hook]

I am not sure how much I want to share about all the details right now, but I can relate to everything you are saying. I think sexuality can be a way to self medicate just like alcohol or anything else that is addictive.

I hope you and your husband can work things out. Remember that shame is useless emotion. You have no reason to feel shame. It is different than guilt. I think you are a good person, just like your husband is. You did something that made you feel guilty, but that guilt can drive you to make changes in your life to help you.