How do you know if you are TRULY happy - and it's not the result of an episode?

Am I truly happy?

I don't know if I've ever really been happy! In my LIFE!

What if it was just the hypomania making me feel happy. Really this is serious. What if it was just a "chemical happy" and I've just been in denial all this time and what I thought when I was happy I wasn't actually happy at all.

What's going on with me?

Do I even make sense?

Oh gees here comes my confusion.

I understand what you are saying.I have thought that way about Love. What if it was just hypomania/mania?

Why does this make no sense to me at all?

I don't understand myself.

Yes I know this probably sounds all weird.

None of my thoughts make sense to me.

I don't even know why I am even thinking this right now.

You're right. Have I ever truly loved anyone?

I don't understand myself either a lot of the time. :/

I just of my best to gang on and ride it out. Right now my mind is full of songs and I'm wide awake well before I should be. I could be headed up bit what if I'm just genuinely happy???

What if I'm hypo? I feel great!!! What if I'm just happy?? lol I get confused too

The music I was singing died Hallie. Ughhh who stole my thunder. I don't even know why I feel like this.

When I'm hypo I feel great too.

My favourite Artist: Greenday

One of my favourite songs:

I love green day!

In my head I've got stuck 'Geronimo', 'honey I'm good' and 'the hanging tree'

Weird mix. I'm wiiiide awake,

I think I must have been mad to have thought I was truly happy. Once.

I mess things up all the time

I have brief moments where I feel happy, like if something good happens (which is rare, not to be negative or anything).

I understand.

My Momma (God rest her soul) asked me one time years ago if I had ever been happy. My answer was no, I don't think I have. I'm not sure I even know what that word is supposed to mean.....

If I knew what to say to some people, I would say it. But I don't know the right words to say.

I have to accept the fact that part of life means getting hurt sometimes but it's important that we do move on.

Otherwise we are only killing our own mental health.

And that serves in nobody's best interest.

Can you do something you enjoy and see if there's a difference in how it makes you feel?

I hope that makes sense-- sorry if the question seems off. I'm depressive but not bipolar. I saw this topic in "today's posts" and was hoping I could learn something slightly parallel to my situation (as I recover from depression), if it's okay with you guys. (If not, please just say so and I'll leave the thread and not bother you again.)

Yeah it makes sense. You're not off topic.

I've got a few relaxation activities booked in for this week which is great.

I thought I was swinging down.

No.

This is not swinging down into depression.

This is me being hurt by callous people.

I'll get there.

I'll feel more recharged once I've had my nails and hair done. That usually works

Oh great, I just wasn't sure if I should stay in my relevant forum sections only.

I bet a salon visit would do wonders. Then if you want, you can see if it reminds you of hypomania or not, right?

I love your thinking.

High 5 that's awesome.

(I'm sure my pdoc recommended these activities to me )

Know how you feel bipolar can be so confusing.
I don't think its strange to feel the way you do.
I totally get it and often wonder the same thing myself.

Yes. That's the operative word in this entirely subjective non sensicle utterly rambling thread of mine that seems to have absolutely no other point or significance to anyone on this forum other than to allow me to vent.

Okay I feel better for sharing thanks

I'm glad you don't think it's strange

(because I feel weird at the best of times)

This post is about as real as it gets. What even ARE FEELINGS!? What is real???

Hmmmm good point.

Got me pondering.

So what's the difference between these:

Feeling happy because of our environment

OR

Feeling happy because of hypomania?

Could you have both?

I recon yeah you could actually .... because probably when you're hypo you're more outgoing / friendly / sociable - all round easier to get on with as opposed to when you might be depressed and not want to really hang around with anyone, if this analogy makes sense.

And maybe some people are just brought up in an environment where they will be less exposed to events that may cause unhappiness for others.

There's probably a study on this with identical twins?