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#1
Jul 14, 2015, 02:36 PM
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Idk how I feel today. Isn't that weird?
I feel ok and I feel bad. I want to laugh and I want to cry. I want to live and I want to die.
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schizoaffective bipolar type PTSD generalized anxiety d/o haldol, prazosin, risperdal and prn klonopin and helpful cogentin |
 Anonymous200230, Anonymous327501, Anonymous48690, Anonymous48850, LettinG0, Secretum, Wander
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#2
Jul 14, 2015, 02:50 PM
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(((((Hallie )))))
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin "Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha  |
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#3
Jul 14, 2015, 04:08 PM
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I'm sorry you are feeling like that. I know how you feel ((hugs))
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| HALLIEBETH87
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#4
Jul 14, 2015, 08:52 PM
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The thoughts are darker snd deeper.
I can smile to people and pretend but it's all fake. I see t on Thursday and have to pretend until then. My family is leaving tomorrow do I will be alone in my thoughts. I'm worried to talk to t. I've been honest on my DBT diary cards and it's gonna start a conversation
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| Anonymous200230
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#5
Jul 14, 2015, 08:57 PM
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Your idk is how i spend most my days. It is rougher to be alone with your thoughts. Try some distraction. I try to occupy my mind with anything that is not me related. I hope you feel better.
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| Anonymous200230
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| HALLIEBETH87
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Jul 14, 2015, 09:13 PM
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Hang in there until Thursday. Try to set yourself some project you can do to keep yourself distracted until then whilst your family is away. Be honest with your T and hopefully together you can come up with a plan.
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| HALLIEBETH87
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#7
Jul 14, 2015, 09:30 PM
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*******trigger*******
Ty. I'm trying. I'm having dark suicide ideation and being near a gun tonight is making it worse. I'm staying with family tonight so I'll be going home tomorrow where I'll be home alone. I'm afraid to talk to t but I'll be honest. It's just starting the conversation and where it will go that makes me nervous.
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| Anonymous200230
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#8
Jul 14, 2015, 09:36 PM
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I find that starting out with what I want to get out of the session will set the tone, rather than her asking the usual "how have you been" and then you explaining everything that's happened since you last saw them.
As far as the gun in the house - if your concerned, is there someone you can give it to until your family returns? A neighbor, friend, someone? Just a thought. If you remove the temptation, then there can be no temptation....... xXx |
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#9
Jul 14, 2015, 09:51 PM
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It's not mine. It's my uncles. I leave here tomorrow
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Jul 15, 2015, 05:44 AM
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No sleep at all
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Jul 15, 2015, 06:10 AM
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Can you lose yourself in a really good book?
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#12
Jul 15, 2015, 07:41 AM
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I don't have one with me. I have a dr appt then I'm gonna go home and hole up in my room for a while. In getting crazier..
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Jul 15, 2015, 07:53 AM
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Take care of yourself. I always have a book with me just in case. Stay safe, try and sleep.
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Jul 15, 2015, 08:25 AM
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I'm losing it I think
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| Anonymous48850
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Jul 15, 2015, 09:32 AM
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I know how you feel, just went through that myself. I NEVER breakdown and cry....Just don't do it, but I did in the shower the other day...so totally unlike myself I though WTF is going on....I was soooo despondent...than then I did what I had to to take care of myself and I am getting better and more stable today.
Just take good care of yourself, call someone you can talk to, or your Dr. office, and eat/sleep/medicate properly.
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Jul 15, 2015, 09:37 AM
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I see my therapist tomorrow
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Jul 15, 2015, 09:43 AM
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Then hang in there until tomorrow....it WILL get better, it ALWAYS gets better.
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Jul 15, 2015, 10:10 AM
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Ive never been this much in danger before. I can't put it here
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