![]() |
FAQ/Help |
Calendar |
Search |
#26
|
||||
|
||||
Quote:
Sent from my SAMSUNG-SM-G750A using Tapatalk |
![]() cashart10
|
#27
|
||||
|
||||
I talked with my therapist today. She thought that my issues last night were related to the anxiety over my meds. I think so too. She even said that my hearing thunder was likely me hearing thunder. She said that just because I heard it and my husband didn't, didn't mean it wasn't there. She said I shouldn't jump to conclusions when I was clearly stressed to the max about something entirely different. I know that I tend to do that. She thought my affect was fine.
Then tonight I talked to my hubs and mom. They both agreed to the Lamictal only. I took everything this morning but I am going to try this experiment. So, tonight, and until it is decided otherwise, and with the support of my pdoc, I took only the Lamictal (although I am going to get up in a moment and take the Klonapin to help me sleep tonight because I can forsee that being an issue). My pdoc warned that I may need the Abilify right off since he sensed my mood seemed a little elevated but we are going to start here. I hope this works. When I was young and took all of these meds, it was when I dropped to only one that I started to get better, that I dropped all of the stupid weight, and that I stopped feeling like such a ditzy, emotionless robot. Good luck to me...I have butterflies even typing this.
__________________
***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
![]() Disorder7, LettinG0, raspberrytorte, Victoria'smom
|
#28
|
||||
|
||||
Quote:
And, I think a BIG part of my problem is that those years spent "happily stable" were years with no meds. I had about 8 years of stability med free. Since I got so sick and began meds again, I have been a total mess.
__________________
***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
![]() Anonymous200280, raspberrytorte
|
#29
|
||||
|
||||
Quote:
__________________
***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
#30
|
|||
|
|||
I think you are voicing what many of us with bipolar feel. We all want the mania/hypomania. Until it gets bad.
It is the fact that it can not be controlled. That is hard for me. I can't just have a bit of mania. |
![]() cashart10, LettinG0
|
#31
|
|||
|
|||
Good for you that you are doing what you want and think you should do...no one should tell you what you should do ....I think you were just saying what was going on in your head out loud to people you thought would understand a little better so you could figure out what you wanted to do,which is helpful and there are people on here that are supportive but there are a lot of you who do judge a lot .I hear everywhere to end the stigma and for people with mental illness to not feel ashamed or judged but I come on here were it is all people with mental illness and they are judging others and telling them what they should do and the one person who said that you are a "addicting to instability ". I'm sorry but if you don't want to be judged than just don't judge others..and don't tell others what they need and should do..just be supporting or don't say anything...
Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk |
![]() cashart10
|
#32
|
||||
|
||||
Quote:
Also, we interact with people regularly here, and we get invested in their lives - at least the parts that they share with us --- and we want to see the outcome of their current dilemma be a positive one....so we put in our two cents worth... Most of us are not stigmatizing nor are we judging. We care. And so we express our honest opinions...... Cash has been willing to share her journey with all of its ups and downs and sideways...and we've all been along for the ride. I hope she hasn't been hurt by any of the posts; but, I believe like she can handle the sincere, honest opinions.
__________________
![]() LettinG0 BP II |
![]() *Laurie*, cashart10, raspberrytorte
|
#33
|
|||
|
|||
Reason for editing:
Decided that this post is not worth my attention. Last edited by *Laurie*; Aug 25, 2015 at 04:43 PM. |
![]() cashart10
|
#34
|
||||
|
||||
Quote:
I'm sorry about my blunt question. I didn't mean to be insensitive.
__________________
The darkest of nights is followed by the brightest of days. 😊 - anonymous The night belongs to you. 🌙- sleep token "What if I can't get up and stand tall, What if the diamond days are all gone, and Who will I be when the Empire falls? Wake up alone and I'll be forgotten." 😢 - sleep token |
#35
|
||||
|
||||
Quote:
__________________
The darkest of nights is followed by the brightest of days. 😊 - anonymous The night belongs to you. 🌙- sleep token "What if I can't get up and stand tall, What if the diamond days are all gone, and Who will I be when the Empire falls? Wake up alone and I'll be forgotten." 😢 - sleep token |
#36
|
||||
|
||||
Quote:
When I stop my meds it's because I know the side effects will take about ten years off of my life. That's the statistics for people with bipolar and a big reason is the medication they feed us...but, the other reasons are suicide and homicide. So basically we're damned if we do and damned if we don't. We may be unstable and difficult to understand at times, but I think any of us who woke up today are badass survivors. That's just my opinion.
__________________
DX: Bipolar 1 Panic disorder PTSD GAD OCD Dissociative Disorder RX: Topamax, Xanax, Propranolol |
![]() cashart10, LettinG0
|
#37
|
||||
|
||||
Quote:
__________________
***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
![]() LettinG0
|
![]() LettinG0
|
#38
|
||||
|
||||
Quote:
__________________
***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
![]() LettinG0, raspberrytorte
|
![]() LettinG0, raspberrytorte
|
#39
|
||||
|
||||
Quote:
I find stability extremely dull and boring BUT MY KIDS LIVES ARE MORE IMPORTANT AND WORTH IT! My kids are first and I come after them always Sent from my iPhone 6 plus using Tapatalk
__________________
Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel... it's just a freight train coming your way. |
![]() *Laurie*, cashart10
|
#40
|
||||
|
||||
Quote:
Firstly, regarding you Loophole, good for you! This is VERY true and VERY important. Secondly, regarding me, I am very loving, nurturing, and slow to anger, no matter my affect. This is my saving grace as a mom. When I am not level headed enough to make rational decisions, I depend on my husband. I hope the Lamictal mono therapy will make me stable without making me flat, colorless, and vacuous as has been my experience with psych meds at all times in my life I have taken them (unless I have taken only one or two certain meds). Seven meds is a ridiculous number!
__________________
***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
![]() Disorder7, LettinG0
|
#41
|
||||
|
||||
I always thought that was way to much .... best luck girl ... you deserve it ....
![]() |
![]() cashart10
|
#42
|
||||
|
||||
Quote:
Sent from my SAMSUNG-SM-G750A using Tapatalk |
![]() LettinG0
|
#43
|
|||
|
|||
(((((Cash)))) xo
|
#44
|
||||
|
||||
Totally off topic but I found a song for you, actually in music therapy in the hospital.
__________________
Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2.5 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily |
#45
|
||||
|
||||
I haven't listened to this yet but I will; I almost missed it because I've been away. I'll listen and let you know what I think. Thanks for sharing; you are very sweet. How are you feeling? Better, I hope!
__________________
***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
![]() BeyondtheRainbow
|
#46
|
||||
|
||||
I think you'll like it. Lots of meaning in there.
I'm ok. I had so many med changes in just a few days that the dr. said I'm going to feel bad for a week or two more while my brain adjusts. So far he is accurate. But I don't want to hurt myself and that is much better than a week ago.
__________________
Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2.5 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily |
Reply |
|