[jediwill83]

Its so hard for my mind to feel like it actually gets rest recently. We have a baby on the way *our first* and we also might be making a move soon. The move hinges on my dad getting some construction work done on a apartment but because of his work schedule it keeps getting moved back and the last thing we want is a move late in the pregnancy. We just have a lot on us at the moment and I'm taking all my meds but I just feel mentally and emotionally overloaded trying to plan and strategize and my mind wont stop racing. I dont know if ive triggered a manic phase or what but there is nothing fun about this and I'm getting stressed from feeling I'm not accomplishing what I should that emotionally I just feel adrift like "whats the use?"
I'm in EMS and I work 2.5 and 3.5 days at a time and am away from home during that time. My wife is having a rough pregnancy with the nausea and lack of energy so I feel like everything is on me. I'm just feeling burnt out and ovewhelmed...sorry if this comes across as a bad rant but I just am at the end of my rope mentally and emotionally.

[Homeira]

I have BP II as well. I can get hypomanic when something is going on, like a move f.eks. I have no recipe for how to stop it. With me, it usually runs its course. I plan for after the hypomanic phase is over. Then I know I will need rest, as I know I will plunge into a depressive periode. Try as best as you can to eat well and stick to your routines. Listen to calming music. Stay away from "fast" and loud music.
If possible, maybe you should talk about it with your psychiatrist? An adjustment in meds migth help?

And rant on PC once in a while! Very calming and therapeutic

[jediwill83]

Yeah I need to write down a schedule for things to do when I'm off so I'll have some feelings of accomplishment. Sometimes I have late long distance transports and I take some caffeine pills to offset the drowsy effects of my Latuda that I take at night...I think that is contributing to my lack of rest.

[Homeira]

The whole writing of lists can be my nemesis at times. I have finally understood that I have to make very short lists, and stick to that. Not do any MORE than that in a day... When I am hypo, the problem is to keep myself from gaping over too much. And if we don't get everything done in a day? Well, that is because we have BP. Some days are like that, and that is ok too

[jediwill83]

thanks for the encouragement.

[LettinG0]

You definitely have a lot on your plate and it is completely understandable that your mind is everywhere and nowhere at the same time. Like Homeira suggested, try to stick to your routine as much as you can and make the short to-do lists....even if you check off one item per day that is progress.....be kind to yourself. Wishing you the best. And congrats on the little one!

[RomanJames2014]

This is usually the second sign that I am going manic. It sucks because my racing thoughts are expression my phone or computer so I can tell how manic I am by the battery life on my iPhone diminishing. The stress is not going to help that much either.

See if your PDOC can maybe give you something to relax before you suit up for the battle of new baby and new house.

Hope you feel better soon.

[xxblackrosesxx]

This is completely understandable especially with a baby on its way

[faerie_moon_x]

Ranting is good. Getting it out instead of holding it in is good. Especially to the internet peoples vs. suddenly exploding at your loved ones.

I always have so much going on. I work full time plus take care of my family, including my MIL who also has BP. It's hard sometimes and feeling worn out is normal.

[Capriciousness]

What you re describing sounds too familiar. Like everyone is saying it is perfectly understandable that you would be feeling like this right now. Just be aware that you are in a danger zone of sorts and do all you can to try to minimize the amount of effects the stress puts on you in a physiological way. Easier said than done I know. I usually need some klonopin in those kinds of places so that something worse doesn't start rolling.

CONGRATS on the baby!

It will be so much harder.....but SO much better.