[xxblackrosesxx]

So I tried to run away from home and all my problems for a week. I stayed at a friends and just got back Sunday evening. My care coordinator has been worried about me because of my drinking and not wanting to take my meds or go back home. She said I shouldn't of been on 200mg zoloft in the first place and has put me on 50mg..and now seroquel is being put up to 800mg at night. My care coordinator told me not to travel all this week or go out at all in the evening and to just stick to a basic routine of eating properly again, sleeping and taking my meds. I am pretty much going to be almost house bound . Depression sucks.

[xxblackrosesxx]

Idk what to do. I can't feel

Thats a high dose of seroquel. Idk how youre able to function. I cant tolerate more than 100 mg. i actually cant tolerate it at all anymore but thats my issue. I hope you get to feeling better. Depression sucks. Mania is fun but only for a time. Its very destructive. Hope you can get to base or as close as possible soon. Be good to your self.

[xxblackrosesxx]

Originally Posted by Shawkat2009

Thats a high dose of seroquel. Idk how youre able to function. I cant tolerate more than 100 mg. i actually cant tolerate it at all anymore but thats my issue. I hope you get to feeling better. Depression sucks. Mania is fun but only for a time. Its very destructive. Hope you can get to base or as close as possible soon. Be good to your self.

Oh mania...I was manic all summer now I am paying for it. I can somehow tolerate seroquel but they want to put me on a different ap.

Pdoc and i have been looking for new ap for me for months. Getting tired of being a guinea pig. Havent had a full blown mania in a long time but remember fondly until the crash. Some how coping without ap idk how but i am. Things have to get better right? My fiance grounds me for the most part and may be why i havent gone full blown manic. But not everyone is that lucky and i know that. Be good to yourself. This is important. You count always remember that when things get tough!

[Mountainbard]

I'm sorry you had such a rough summer. Sounds like you are paying for it now for sure. The problem with running away from your problems is they always find you. I know you're not happy you're not allowed out for a week, but give it a week w/meds and proper nutrition and see where you are.

[Nammu]

At least you're at home and not in a hospital where is ten times more boring and regimented.

[gina_re]

I remember the crash from being hypo all too well. I just got out of the depression a couple of weeks ago. It's horrible, but it does get better. It's just that the waiting is the hardest part of it. But keeping a routine is helpful in getting better. At least that's what helps me stay somewhat sane. Hope you get better soon, please take care of yourself!

[mathrye]

This sounds like a difficult and agitating stretch. Sending best wishes; I know it's hard to sit still. It'll pay off though!

[~Christina]

Can you try Meditation? Mindfulness? Yoga? Journling? Take up writing a blog , Bing on netflix or tv shows/ movies. But do get some exercise daily and sit out in the sun at least 15-20 mins a day.

Hopefully your mood will level out soon. Feel better

[xxblackrosesxx]

Originally Posted by sidestepper

At least you're at home and not in a hospital where is ten times more boring and regimented.

I'm glad I'm not in hospital at least

[xxblackrosesxx]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Can you try Meditation? Mindfulness? Yoga? Journling? Take up writing a blog , Bing on netflix or tv shows/ movies. But do get some exercise daily and sit out in the sun at least 15-20 mins a day.

Hopefully your mood will level out soon. Feel better

I've been going out for a walk everyday. I've quit drinking and smoking now. I've pampered myself today and did some drawings as another form of distractions. They help but my mood is still low of the decrease of zoloft.

[xxblackrosesxx]

Originally Posted by Shawkat2009

Pdoc and i have been looking for new ap for me for months. Getting tired of being a guinea pig. Havent had a full blown mania in a long time but remember fondly until the crash. Some how coping without ap idk how but i am. Things have to get better right? My fiance grounds me for the most part and may be why i havent gone full blown manic. But not everyone is that lucky and i know that. Be good to yourself. This is important. You count always remember that when things get tough!

You're doing impressively well for not being on an ap for a while .

[xxblackrosesxx]

Originally Posted by mathrye

This sounds like a difficult and agitating stretch. Sending best wishes; I know it's hard to sit still. It'll pay off though!

Thank you. I've been trying to be good to myself . It's going painfully slow so far but it's the first time I've truly rested in months

[xxblackrosesxx]

Originally Posted by gina_re

I remember the crash from being hypo all too well. I just got out of the depression a couple of weeks ago. It's horrible, but it does get better. It's just that the waiting is the hardest part of it. But keeping a routine is helpful in getting better. At least that's what helps me stay somewhat sane. Hope you get better soon, please take care of yourself!

I'm starting to get into a routine medication wise . I try to take them at the same times. I make sure I at least have breakfast before 12 and a shower too.

[xxblackrosesxx]

Originally Posted by Mountainbard

I'm sorry you had such a rough summer. Sounds like you are paying for it now for sure. The problem with running away from your problems is they always find you. I know you're not happy you're not allowed out for a week, but give it a week w/meds and proper nutrition and see where you are.

I'm still down and crying but I've honestly been trying hard. It's hard because I think I am withdrawing from a high dose of zoloft I went from 200mg to 50mg and doesn't feel nice at all.