[Bpdgirl88]

Hi,
So im still having a manic episode, however last week I was very high and not sleeping at all which went on for 6days, then I started to get a few hours sleep and started coming down. I saw my psychiatrist on Tuesday but was not so bad compared to last week, he upped my Seroquel and downed my anti depressant and said if I get worse or my mood shifts to contact him.
Well I txt him yesterday explaining that I keep getting like anger bursts that are getting hard to control and how im getting stressed out by everyone talking about me and wathig what I do. But he didnt reply.
Today my sister made me go to the doctors because she said im getting worse however the doctor said he cant touch me and to call my psychiatrist or go to hospital. Except I do not want to go to hospital but I also dont really want to call my doctor because I feel stupid ringing them telling them whats going on or whatever and I dont want to bother them again.
But since Tuesday I havent slept at all again and my mood has picked back up as in im getting high again, which to me isnt really a bad thing but my sister is whinging and using my niece as a pawn to get help.
Im meant to see my psychiatrist again on Tuesday so should I just wait or should I call and let them know that my moods picked up again etc???
Like at the end of the day I feel awsome and I dont see why people think thats a problem! But you cant win them all.

Thanks guys!

[Edgar's Mom]

To me it sounds like a good idea to call you doctor again. Usually when our loved ones are concerned, it's reason enough for us to be concerned. Sometimes they are able to see things more clearly than we are. I rely heavily on my hubby's observations and I trust his judgement. I don't want to go IP on Tuesday but I am, partly because my doc wants it and partly because my hubby and Mom want me to go.

The point is, they are observing things differently than I am. You don't have to feel stupid calling your doc because he told you to... You'll be just doing what he asked. You can point that out when you call him... Preface it with "you said you wanted me to call if..."

I know you feel good at the end of the day, but the anger might cause you some problems... At least mine does. I break stuff and it gets expensive, and I am liable to impulsively hurt myself when I have outbursts... Is that a problem for you?

Do you feel safe? Does your family think you are safe? If anyone has any concerns about your safety, I would go in to emerg. If you are fine till tomorrow I'd call your doc for sure.

One more night without sleep will not improve matters for you :-/

I hope you feel better soon.

((((((HUG)))))))))

[Bpdgirl88]

Originally Posted by Edgar's Mom

To me it sounds like a good idea to call you doctor again. Usually when our loved ones are concerned, it's reason enough for us to be concerned. Sometimes they are able to see things more clearly than we are. I rely heavily on my hubby's observations and I trust his judgement. I don't want to go IP on Tuesday but I am, partly because my doc wants it and partly because my hubby and Mom want me to go.

The point is, they are observing things differently than I am. You don't have to feel stupid calling your doc because he told you to... You'll be just doing what he asked. You can point that out when you call him... Preface it with "you said you wanted me to call if..."

I know you feel good at the end of the day, but the anger might cause you some problems... At least mine does. I break stuff and it gets expensive, and I am liable to impulsively hurt myself when I have outbursts... Is that a problem for you?

Do you feel safe? Does your family think you are safe? If anyone has any concerns about your safety, I would go in to emerg. If you are fine till tomorrow I'd call your doc for sure.

One more night without sleep will not improve matters for you :-/

I hope you feel better soon.

((((((HUG)))))))))

Hi, thanks for replying. I have been having a few outbursts and have came very close to hurting myself during them. Ive only just been diagnosed due to my psychologist picking up that I was manic so im still trying to understand all of it, its actually quite confusing.
Like he said call him if I get worse except I dont know what they mean by that or if I actually am getting worse or what like I got NO idea. Plus I dont want to look stupid being that I only saw them on Tuesday, surely your mood cant change that fast can it?

[Edgar's Mom]

I think you should call him. If you are having the impulse to hurt yourself in your outbursts then you really aren't safe. Mania can be dangerous :-/

How do you feel tonight? I strongly urge you if you feel like you are going to have an outburst to go to emerg. Otherwise, call your doc first thing in the morning.

Do you have a prn you can take? A lot of us have drugs we can take as needed during times of crisis... I have Zyprexa that I take if I feel like I"m going to lose it. Some have Seroquel or others.

If you feel on top of the world and fantastic in your mania, that can still be considered worse, even though it doesn't feel like it to you. It's worse because you aren't stable, and it's often not safe to stay manic.

You need to sleep if you can... Do you have something to take the edge off?

You will not look stupid at all. They deal with this all the time. We are an everyday thing to them :-) Your doc will expect you to call if you are still or are more manic, and especially if you have outbursts.

Trust me, if you are manic, not sleeping, having outbursts and family members are concerned, then it is time to call your doc!!!!

Don't worry about feeling stupid... You are NOT stupid to responsibly seek help during a period of crisis and instability. You are doing the right thing :-)

(((((HUG))))))

[Bpdgirl88]

Um well at the moment ive actually got alot of energy and am quite bored like I really should be out doing something.
I dont have a prn but I am taking Seroquel as a medication. He had me on 200mg for 7mths to try and control my borderline but upped it to 400mg on Tuesday

[Edgar's Mom]

Then even if you can hang in there till tomorrow without feeling like you might have an outburst, make sure you call your doc tomorrow and tell him/her what's been going on. Just what you wrote in these posts.

Do you have both BP and BPD?

[Bpdgirl88]

Its Friday about 6pm here, so should I still call his mobile being a weekend? I feel rude doing that.

Yea I have been diagnosed with BPD for 2yrs now which is still quite unstable and now just got diagnosed with BP so yep I certainly have an interesting mix!