[LorrieTorrie]

I feel like I am slowly losing control. I can't control my thoughts, and I just want to fall apart. I've been trying to reach my psychiatrist and therapist but no one has gotten back to me yet. I was trying to go med free, but now I'm starting to think that was silly. My support counselor told me to go to the ER of I think I need medication immediately, but I don't want them to admit me. I'm not suicidal or homicidal, and I highly doubt I can just treat the ER like my own personal pharmacy where they will give me medicine and just let me walk out when I'm done. I feel like an idiot for denying the medication, because now I'm sitting here crawling out of my skin. I can't sit still and I can't stop thinking. I just want to scream, I feel like I'm slowly losing my mind.

[avlady]

this is an awful situation for you, which used to happen to me alot when i was first on meds. i would be in the emergency room every week. try to get through it with the breathing exercises. i myself have diazapam which i am allowed to take an extra one if needed. good luck

[LorrieTorrie]

I've calmed down a bit. Thanksgiving just really set me back. I had been doing pretty good med free, but I wasn't ready to be around my family like that. It triggered me and I feel like I set myself back quite a bit. I'm going to try to stay calm and wait until Monday to speak with my psychiatrist so that I can start medication. I don't know why it was so important for me to be med free. Being a stable functioning human being is the ultimate goal.