Is hating every day of your life depression?

I told my husband last night that I hate every day of my life. Is that depression?

My assumption is that people who aren't depressed can hate every day of their lives.

But since I can't identify the way I feel, I don't know.

I did cry myself to sleep.

Which is pretty sad.

I called my pdoc because I'm worried about how much weight I've been gaining. And I'm uncertain if this lamictal and gabapentin combination is such a good thing. The nurse called back and said my pdoc wanted me to keep on taking my meds the way they are, until my appointment next week and we'd discuss it further.

I definitely don't feel anxious. I've been very relaxed. Almost too relaxed. My husband told me it's been nice, but that it's a little uncharacteristic of me. Normally I'm an energetic person. Lately my *** has been on the couch, watching stupid shows. Right now our apartment is a disaster.

I just feel so... relaxed. Almost like I'm high all of the time or something.

Anyway. I think gabapentin was good for the tail end of my clonazepam withdrawal, but it's not something I want to stay on permanently. I'm going to ask about buspar.

Alright.

Sorry this all was sort of pointless.

I mean, does anyone else hate everyday of your life?

I wake up every morning wanting to stab myself in the face.

Oh, and I also really can't remember anything, so if I posted something similar to this not that long ago I apologize!

Yes that is depression in a nutshell if you ask me. I've been depressed for the past 2 years and it's like this most days for me. Just remember to tell your pdoc all of this, maybe make a list? He/she should be able to find what works for you. And also research the side effects of the meds you are on. They could be causing your moods and feelings.

Thanks. I will tell her. My memory right now is so bad I've already been writing a list.

I wake up the same way.

Neurontin/ gabapentin can make ya stupid .. My husband has taken it for neuropathy and it made him dumber than a hollowed out stump

Gabapentin /Neurontin can and will cause memory problems and can certainly cause weight gain for some people.

Some days I wake up and go about my day hating the world and everyone and thing in it , well except my dog.. It happens , its not always BP its just something that can happen...

There is lots of levels of " Hate" can you figure out where you fit on that scale ???

I don't know.

But gabapentin and I are certainly parting ways. I'm kissing that **** goodbye. I don't like clothes shopping, and if this weight gain persists I'm going to have to.

I usually feel this way as I get depressed.

Sounds like depression to me - it may just be a less flamboyant depression. Some depressions I am crying constantly, but during others, I feel eerily calm yet cynical

Raspberry I'm so sorry you are going through that. My heart goes out to you. I would call those feeling depression if I had them.

I hope your doc makes some changes that help you soon ((((((((HUG)))))))))))

I don't know if it's a bipolar thing, or just something a lot of us do but I defiantly spend a lot of time sitting there thinking I hate this life. Hugs

Sounds like depression. I'm sorry you are having to go through this. I know it can make life miserable.

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depression ... , thankfully it has completely lifted for me, work is ok again ... buspar has been wonderful for me ... Good luck