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Lately I have been finding things stashed away bought when on the way "up"
Sometimes it's awesome (wow when did I get this bag of expensive makeup!? Score!) Other times its like omg what was i thinking Yikes! Lol But I didn't expect to feel sad. I liked, LOVED that feeling heading up But now I'm looking back like wow What a bunch of wasted time Hard on my family Hard on my brain...my life I think about the hospital now and idk I never want to be there again Not for all the I'm walking on sunshine mania in the world So much regret
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I used to rule the world Seas would rise when I gave the word Now in the morning, I sleep alone Sweep the streets I used to own I used to roll the dice Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes Listen as the crowd would sing Now the old king is dead! Long live the king! One minute I held the key Next the walls were closed on me And I discovered that my castles stand Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand |
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I live with a lot of regret. I completely understand! Mine destroyed my marriage. Now I am afraid to get into relationships and wonder if I will ever get remarried. I understand regret, but I also take second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour etc. I am learning how to forgive myself. Hang in there. You are not alone.
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Thx!
I'm sorry about you marriage but totally get it I think it's why I have stayed single and kept only casual relationships (after a couple long unhealthy ones) And in that sense I put my health in danger the last manic episode Sometimes I feel like I am playing me on a made for TV movie Who the hell am I lol
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I used to rule the world Seas would rise when I gave the word Now in the morning, I sleep alone Sweep the streets I used to own I used to roll the dice Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes Listen as the crowd would sing Now the old king is dead! Long live the king! One minute I held the key Next the walls were closed on me And I discovered that my castles stand Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand |
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Sometimes I have clothes in the closet with the price tags still on. I find them and wonder when I bought them.
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I like when I find things and wonder why I bought them. Apparently when I am hypo manic I am a huge video game junkie.
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Feels good to feel silly.
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It's kinda like not being able to pick your relatives, regret is married to mania....the in-law you would rather not have to acknowledge.
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Lol its like a surprise christmas!
Regret is so the in law you wanna kick to the curb but you have to sit with at dinner pretending its not killing your appetite!
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I used to rule the world Seas would rise when I gave the word Now in the morning, I sleep alone Sweep the streets I used to own I used to roll the dice Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes Listen as the crowd would sing Now the old king is dead! Long live the king! One minute I held the key Next the walls were closed on me And I discovered that my castles stand Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand |
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put them at the kids table ... the little bitty one ... with the plastic fork and spoon .... ![]() |
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![]() ![]() Except regret is always the kid who starts flinging his food and whining
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I used to rule the world Seas would rise when I gave the word Now in the morning, I sleep alone Sweep the streets I used to own I used to roll the dice Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes Listen as the crowd would sing Now the old king is dead! Long live the king! One minute I held the key Next the walls were closed on me And I discovered that my castles stand Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand |
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They are also the standing on their chair and screaming at the top of their lungs at the kids table.
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what's wrong with that .... monkeys fling there poo ..... natural thing to do .... that's why they make garden hoses ...
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Lmao
If anything this thread has me laughing at regret This is the approach I need to use more often Thx guys!
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I used to rule the world Seas would rise when I gave the word Now in the morning, I sleep alone Sweep the streets I used to own I used to roll the dice Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes Listen as the crowd would sing Now the old king is dead! Long live the king! One minute I held the key Next the walls were closed on me And I discovered that my castles stand Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand |
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Lord don't get me started on the in-laws. One thanksgiving I worked hard on dinner and I have a special needs child and my other child was just 1 years old plus I worked a lot of hours but I did cook dinner for the whole family and there was a good amount of them. My sister in law was pregnant with her third child third baby daddy and she's on welfare. Anyway her and her brother got into it not my husband but there other brother. They almost got into a fist fight at the table. I was shocked and mad. She was was due in just a couple of weeks. I managed to get all the kids out of the room and then people left I have never had his side of the family over again for a holiday dinner
Has for clothes I look in my closet and there are clothes with tags on them and I think A. When am I ever going to wear this and B. Why would I buy this
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I bet there is a korean video about that .... got to look ....
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next years christmas gifts ....
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Regifting....great idea!
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Hahahahaha To all of that...from family to clothes.....that cracked me up
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I used to rule the world Seas would rise when I gave the word Now in the morning, I sleep alone Sweep the streets I used to own I used to roll the dice Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes Listen as the crowd would sing Now the old king is dead! Long live the king! One minute I held the key Next the walls were closed on me And I discovered that my castles stand Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand |
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family tree ... clothes tree .... all the same .... turn brown and fall on the ground ... and get swepted away ....
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tbird20tv said: I live with a lot of regret. I completely understand! Mine destroyed my marriage. Now I am afraid to get into relationships and wonder if I will ever get remarried. I understand regret, but I also take second by second, minute by minute, hour by hour etc. I am learning how to forgive myself. Hang in there. You are not alone.
You are learning to forgive yourself. That is a great accomplishment! You need to know how elusive that ability is. I think I have only begun to tap into it this last year. I wanted you to know that. Sincere Congratulations on learning a great gift. We have GOT to be our own best friends. Forgiveness must be learned to go on to learn like, appreciation, respect, admiration, and eventually love of self.
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If I didn't have regret to constantly wallow in, I wouldn't have anything to occupy my mind.
And as for manic shopping: I have a box sitting by my computer filled with white boxes. All Apple devices that I bought in a spree thing that I needed more than one. I'm going into one of those "hate myself" modes and my myriad regrets will overtake me soon. Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk |
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Thank Imah
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Ciderguy please try to not let it consume. I know it is hard. Every now and then I regret things when memories come rushing back in. I wish I could **** off my brain. You figure with all the meds I would be able to.
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