[hartbroken]

I got violent in the hospital once. I was having a manic/delusionary episode without any medicine in me. I was confused, tormented and completely insane when I opened my door and went behind the nurse's station and repeatedly beat on a nurse. The staff was called and they threatened to break my arm, giving me a shot of some tranquilizer.

When I came to, I was crying really deeply because I was thinking people were passing me by like in a line for a visitation. I could hear voices of friends I knew. It was really a sad feeling.

Then the next thing I knew I was in a different building and in my right mind. My doctor had probably injected Zyprexa and Lithium into me, plus some others, and I recovered there for 2 - 3 weeks.

I was charged with a felony for battery for something I couldn't control. The judge was merciful and let me go free, no conviction.

I still don't understand what caused the anger/frustration outburst. That's why I'm asking you guys for your stories.

Have you ever gotten violent, and why do you think you did?

[tbird20tv]

I got violent once. I decided to stop taking my meds and then drink heavily. I pulled a knife on my brother. To this day I am embarrassed and have not forgiven myself even though it has been 18 years ago. Luckily he has forgiven me.

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[Trippin2.0]

My violent actions had nothing to do with bipolar, I either have a really demonically explosive temper or I have IED. Haven't really looked into it because I've been behaving for years now, by avoiding everyone who pushes the wrong buttons and putting myself in timeout until I can play nice with others.


Luckily that's not many people.


I've had terrible rages since about age 11, last occurrence was about 7 years or so ago. That scared the shyt out of me because I could have gone to jail.


My daughter is a good motivator for keeping my anger in check.

[hahayeahtotallylol]

I never initiate violence against others, as it's a waste of my efforts and I don't really hate anyone that bad, but I have gotten violent before. Usually has nothing to do with BP - merely situational.

I only get verbally violent, Thank God. This must be very hard to deal with. I imagine you can feel guilty. I am sorry.