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Yesterday I suspended my studies as I clearly was not coping but now I received an email saying its only for the end of this year and I have to register for next year. I am so worried I will not get better in time for the end of this year to be ready for next year. I'm freaking out because it took me 2 years to get me to this point and I am still struggling so much and not making much progress. I'm scared withdrawing from my degree will send me into a deep depression and just make things worse.

[Ocean Swimmer]

I once was super motivates not to go ip. I had therapy every day and Pdoc once per week.
It was expensive.
If you go ip your ins or your family's will pay some?
I don't know much about So Africa.
I'd get on some Meds that help you cope. You could go back to school if you could get a med combo that works for you.

[Icare dixit]

I'd say, register for next year, but take it slowly! There are of course other considerations like being able to do so financially, spreading out your course load.

Keep busy, but don't stress or overexcite. Maybe find a dull, relatively easy job that helps you to find some distraction while maintaining a routine. Do you work alongside your studies at the moment?

In my experience, this really helps, counterintuitive as it may seem. I went into mania (or maybe mania take-off preceded it) when I stopped my job, while at university.

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Originally Posted by Ocean Swimmer

I once was super motivates not to go ip. I had therapy every day and Pdoc once per week.
It was expensive.
If you go ip your ins or your family's will pay some?
I don't know much about So Africa.
I'd get on some Meds that help you cope. You could go back to school if you could get a med combo that works for you.

I'm struggling to find a med combo that will help me and that's whats worrying me so much. Having mixed episodes and rapidly cycling really isn't working well for me at all. And the pdocs I've been to clearly have no idea how to treat my condition because I seem to be getting worse.

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Originally Posted by Icare dixit

I'd say, register for next year, but take it slowly! There are of course other considerations like being able to do so financially, spreading out your course load.

Keep busy, but don't stress or overexcite. Maybe find a dull, relatively easy job that helps you to find some distraction while maintaining a routine. Do you work alongside your studies at the moment?

In my experience, this really helps, counterintuitive as it may seem. I went into mania (or maybe mania take-off preceded it) when I stopped my job, while at university.

Thank you, I don't work while studying but I think that would just send me into a tailspin. Medicine is already taking such a toll on me mentally and physically I don't think I would be able to handle it.

[Roaming_bird]

I was determined to go to graduate school and spent thousands and thousands of money on loans. I was then kicked out of two schools because I was so suicidal. Today, some 20 years later, I am still paying off those loans for degrees I never got.

If I could redo it, I would have taken time off and get my meds straight. I did end up going to graduate school and getting my master's degree, but I was mentally stable and it was great.

Take your time. School will always be there.

[pirilin]

You're worried for something that is in the future.
It puts a lot of unnecessary pressure on your actual behavior.
Try to go one hr at the time.

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Originally Posted by pirilin

You're worried for something that is in the future.
It puts a lot of unnecessary pressure on your actual behavior.
Try to go one hr at the time.

You are right, just getting through the hour is difficult enough. My anxiety is at an all time high so I just can't help but worry, worry and worry.

[Ocean Swimmer]

Look to see someone's Meds on here. If you feel you can relate. Then ask your Pdoc for those specific Meds.

[gina_re]

You're in med school, right? Is that any different than taking a few semesters off as if you were in undergrad or grad school?

[ComfortablyNumb5]

All I can say is take it slow if not take a semester off. My last job, my pdoc and I decided to up my stabilizer two days before I started just to be safe and it did help. Until he prescribed me a controlled substance that made me out of my mind with hypo and I lost that job do to erratic moods. If you're already having anxiety then avoid anything activating. You said you've been up and down... Are you on a stabilizer? I tried lamictal and it made me mixed and dysphoric but now I'm on trileptal which isn't stimulating and it helped (until I started the stimulants though). Being on uppers was the biggest mistake my pdoc could of made! So at all costs avoid anything like that. Hope you find the right cocktail soon! Putting a deadline on my sanity would drive me nuts because I'd feel forced to get better OR ELSE.

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Originally Posted by gina_re

You're in med school, right? Is that any different than taking a few semesters off as if you were in undergrad or grad school?

Yeah it is different cause I'm only allowed 1 semester off then I have to have an assessment done to 'prove' that I am better. I have no idea why the put a time limit on the suspension though.

[1278]

Originally Posted by RxQueen875

All I can say is take it slow if not take a semester off. My last job, my pdoc and I decided to up my stabilizer two days before I started just to be safe and it did help. Until he prescribed me a controlled substance that made me out of my mind with hypo and I lost that job do to erratic moods. If you're already having anxiety then avoid anything activating. You said you've been up and down... Are you on a stabilizer? I tried lamictal and it made me mixed and dysphoric but now I'm on trileptal which isn't stimulating and it helped (until I started the stimulants though). Being on uppers was the biggest mistake my pdoc could of made! So at all costs avoid anything like that. Hope you find the right cocktail soon! Putting a deadline on my sanity would drive me nuts because I'd feel forced to get better OR ELSE.

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I did up my lamictal, I thought it would help my rapid cycling but now I feel like its made it worse? I'm also on geodon which is making my anxiety worse as well so I feel crazy. I really don't want to go on lithium but it seems I might have to... Its just that I gained a crazy amount of weight on seroquel and effexor (20kgs) in 6 months so I'm scared. I'm over 100kgs now so I'm worried about diabetes and hypertension. I'm only 22. I shouldn't have to worry about these things.

[Ocean Swimmer]

So. Thanks for explaining things.
You do have some more Meds to try.

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Originally Posted by Ocean Swimmer

So. Thanks for explaining things.
You do have some more Meds to try.

Yeah I haven't tried lithium. I have had a bad reaction to everything else I have tried so far (all anti depressants :effexor, cymgen, cipralex, prozac. Anti psychotics like seroquel, risperidal, abilify and geodon. ECT did nothing. Now my mood stabilizer lamictal is giving me anxiety! ) I'm just so skeptical because all the psychiatrists have been pumping me with drugs