Constantly changing my mind

I have not been diagnosed with bipolar but I'm starting to wonder if I have it. One thing I have always done is constantly change my mind, especially when it comes to relationships. With one guy In particular (who is now my youngest daughters father, :/ we are not together) we saw each other on and off for about 6 years. I would want to be with him and think about him for a week and we would talk, things were great. We had sex and in the morning I suddenly wanted nothing to do with him. I'd swear it would never happen again and then months later, the exact same thing happens again. Half the time I wouldn't tell my best friends we were seeing each other again because I felt stupid for doing it again but it was a cycle of wanting him, having sex and then wanting nothing to do with him. I told him a couple months ago I couldn't do it anymore.
But it's happened with other guys too, I talked to this one guy for awhile on an online dating site, and we were gonna meet and then just like that I changed my mind, didn't want to e in a relationship, I wanted to stay single and I never talked to him again.
And a guy who was my boyfriend in the summer of 2014, we were together for 3 months and then suddenly I wasn't attracted to him anymore, I was annoyed and after a couple days broke up within over the phone.
This has happened with 2 other guys I've dated aswell, my track record for relationships is horrible.

I also change my mind a lot about other things like, losing weight when I would start a diet and that would last a few days or maybe a week (sometimes only a day or two) and then suddenly give up and realize that's not the right way to do it even though it was working and I'd do something else and it would go on and on.
Spending money. I get a thought in my head that I have to have something or I go spend 100 dollars on groceries that in a day or two I will decide I need to buy different groceries because I am on a different diet and I'm not eating these kinds of foods anymore.
I went vegan a couple times and gave away all my (recently bought) animal foods which once was actually a lot of stuff.
Right now I really want to get a printer, and I will probably end up buying it even though I don't really NEED it and I can't afford it. I am really impulsive especially when it comes to eating out or getting deliveries of take out. I look at my bank statement online and half of it is take out. It's insane. Once I decide I want or need something, I HAVE to have it and I am in a really bad mood until I decide I will get it. (sometimes I try to talk myself out of it)

100% I feel this.

I don't even have a stable identity. Stable values. Stable beliefs.

Everything is always in question, and i won't rest until i find an answer. And once i find an answer, i look to disprove that theory, because i know everything is meaningless.

But on a positive note, everything is meaningless.

You see? Depends how you look at it.

This thread really resonates with me. I worry a lot about how often i change my mind because i hate hypocrisy and i worry that changing my mind makes me a hypocrite. It's like i am two different people with my bipolar. One wants to save and overeat and oversleep and isolate and the other wants to spend and diet and exercise and be the life of the party.

I'm a serial dieter too. I usually go on a diet in the early Spring once Winter has broken. I'll take up the gym too. Last year i decorated my home with blow-ups of the fitness model Ava Cowan with the fantastic abs. Now i'm so inactive i get winded changing my bed.

The past two years i've had renovation hypo-manias which i abandoned once i crashed, luckily before the work had started. I had talked all about it to my neighbors and they had helped with floor plans and advice and i felt like such a loser having to tell them that i had changed my mind.

I try and comfort myself by telling myself that i am not a hypocrite, i just have bipolar and less co-operation between my parts than a healthy person. There's nothing ethically wrong with planning a reno and then cancelling it, after all. It's a waste of time and energy, tho.

My next Spring hypo-mania could start very soon with the arrival of some warm weather in the forecast and i have *promised* myself i won't get fascinated with renovation again. I will just get out and enjoy the city and festivals and be a tourist in my own city and see all the sights that i am too tired to get out to during the Summer, Fall and Winter when i'm depressed. It's an absurd life but i've been diagnosed for 25 years and i guess this is as good as it gets.

Nice thread. Good topic. Thanx!

Same here, I registered for forth year of Uni when I clearly wasn't ready and changed my mind a day later, too late. Had to go and now suspended my studies. Now I feel anxious as to whether I did the right thing.

I'm kind of glad I'm not the only one. It's insane how much I change my mind about things. I don't even like going clothes shopping anymore because I will decide to get some nice clothes and get excited about how good I will look and spend 100-200 on clothes and the next week I will hate them and not wear them. After Christmas I bought two sweaters that cost me 40 dollars each and I wire them 2-3 times and that was it.
I decided I wanted to start the adult coloring thing that's popular and I bought a few books and some pencil crayons and I used them for one weekend.
I decided to take up knitting. Bought some yarn and needles and that lasted a few days. They are sitting in a drawer, untouched.
About 2 weeks ago, I decided to rearrange my 2 bedroom apartment. I was sharing a room with my 9 month old, and my 5 year old had her own room. I put the two kids in the same room and put my mattress and box spring in the livingroom temporarily while I organized everything and put my bedframe together. My mattress and box spring is still in the livingroom, and my room is still not organized, my bed frame is not together. I just leave my bedroom door shut so I don't have to look at it. And my stuff is still in their closet, and their stuff is in my closet. I just kind of gave up after I had their room organized.
I try so hard to get into a healthy habit of eating well and exercising, and I did it recently for a week, even lost 9lbs. Then I change my mind and tell myself what's the point of trying, I'm just gonna fail, and I give up.
I decided to get my beginners so I could get my drivers license, and was determined to do it in January. I found out even if I got my beginners, I wouldn't be able to drive by myself for a full year and gave up.
More times than I can count, I have come up with career ideas to start my own business (different ideas every time) and soon after I change my mind and realize it will never happen.
I'm so tired of this

What the OP is describing is very much BPD. If that is your only problem, that's great. Don't you try to change too much or you might get much bigger problems. You might wanna see a therapist if you experience worse problems such as longer, more spontaneous (cf. reactive) (episodes of) depression. But don't assume the worst. Your problems in relations may be a protection mechanism which keeps you from getting too (erotomania severe) involved.

The best thing would probably be to learn to talk about these feelings. Ambivalence due to BPD can be treated with psychotherapy or just by you seriously analysing your feelings and behaviour and to see whether you can attenuate your internal turmoil—in a more healthy way.

I have seen people taking care of these relationship problems later in life. Don't fret.

The rest of you sound just like me: hopelessly bipolar.

To be fair, I also have many of the borderline traits, but I couldn't help myself and they turned into SZA/BP problems (although prodromes for that were already present, I just treated them with a BPD personality). Most if not all here should be able to relate.

It's not the only symptoms, but I am always irritably and angry, restless, I am VERY impulsive and spend way too much money on things I don't need, periods of sleeping with people I don't know well enough when I am normally not like that at all. Depression, very emotional, crying etc.

Ditto to this. It's only started happening, at least I've only started noticing it happening in the last 2 years.

I'm always worried I come off as a hypocrite.