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New one here, reached over 100 pages on number 10.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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Hi, I'm ok. Had pdoc this morning, seems I'm getting stable!
![]() Touch of the flu though, feeling physically yucky. My son is coming over with his homeless hippy friends. I can't wait to see him. Made them fresh baked cookies. Hope to show them how not being homeless can be pretty nice. |
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Having an OK day, I seem to stable again, it's been awhile
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Current Meds Lamictal 200 mg x2 Seroquel 100 mg |
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Been having a REALLY rough time staying focused on work this week -- I had to ask a coworker to re-explain a very straightforward task to me and was super embarrassed about it.
Aside from that, I'm going to be signing a lease on a spiffy new condo within the next couple of days. Excited to move out of my parent's house (hopefully for good this time!) and get settled in.
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--Keegan BP1 Substance Use Disorder -- Alcohol (In Recovery) 900mg Lithium 15mg Temazepam PRN "Just Because You're Paranoid Doesn't Mean They're Not After You"
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Doing a lot better than I was on Tuesday... canceled most of my meetings earlier this week and went home early in the day.
Still, finally got the guys who might administer CBT therapy to call me back and trying to explain my diagnosis/situation over the phone, I haven't felt much crazier in a long time. Sigh. |
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Today was a good day in general. I struggled getting up this morning, but I told my mom I would come with her to this appointment, so I had to get up and get dressed. Eventually we met up with my sister and my nephew and had lunch. Even though the service was horrible, it was still fun. After going back to my mom's, we all just talked while my nephew played with his toys. My mom and I went to grocery store for a few things, but then when I left to come home, the anxiety and depression just grew stronger. I felt it while I was out with them, but it didn't affect my interactions. I'm back home and I'm depressed and have no motivation to do anything else except to sleep the rest of the weekend away. I don't even feel like eating dinner, so I know I'm really upset.
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![]() Anonymous45023, BlueInanna, LorrieTorrie, Manic Trance, Takeshi
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Stayed in bed all day felling crappy. Hoping it's just the flu and not a depression coming on.
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![]() Anonymous45023, gina_re, Moreta
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I do not know what I am going to do. I want to get away. I feel I need this, a vacation. I am starting to make a mess for myself. My mother yells and yells sometimes at the daytime caregiver. Why am I there? I cannot stand it. The first time I have felt this way. I hope this caring caregiver does not up and quit on me. I would be in big doo doo if that were to happen.
Tucson
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Dx: Bipolar I, ADD, GAD. Rx: Fluoxetine, Buproprion, Olanzapine, Lamictal, and Strattera. |
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Quite day at home, feeling okay
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Current Meds Lamictal 200 mg x2 Seroquel 100 mg |
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Good day. Not so tired. My mind isn't confused like it has been. I'm able to focus on what I need to. But I did burst into tears when confronting my dh about his lack of appreciation and help around the house.
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dx: bipolar II wellbutrin citalopram lamotrigine |
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Talked to my ex-boss on the phone for 3 hrs today. Don't want to let it get to my head that that's a good idea or that it's likely to happen again any time soon. Was nice to have someone to talk to about work etc though. I don't think I was particularly sick, which I usually am when I talk to him on the phone.
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dx: Bipolar I (Spring 2014). |
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Just got discharged from a crisis residential unit at my counties crisis center yesterday. It was a 7 day program, and I went in due to nearly overdosing again, (I ended up flushing the pills down the toilet). I liked it to be honest, it was what I needed, especially with the recent dosage change in my medications. Today I have an appointment with my therapist, and tomorrow I have a psych appointment, so this will be an interesting 2 days.
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Wir sind was wir sind English We are what we are MDD w/psychotic features, BPD |
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I don't feel well. Somehow made it to work but I'm sure I look like a mess have not showered in days and did not brush my hair. Only just now realized i forgot to do those things lol. Very hard to focus, not getting much done here. :/
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Stayed home feeling sorry for myself today, decided to let myself have this day and I'll move on tomorrow, it's just one day
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Current Meds Lamictal 200 mg x2 Seroquel 100 mg |
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Finally recovering from a nasty virus. I had days of gastrointestinal hell. I felt incredibly depressed for most of them.
However, I am feeling much brighter now. I went in half day at work. I seem much more stable mood wise. I ate too much for lunch. I have spent days in a clear liquid diet. I hope everything stays where it should. Therapy appt in an hour. Kinda nervous for that. Otherwise, I am glad not to be throwing up . |
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Aside from blacking out on Saturday and waking up in a car full of vomit with a young lady at the window talking jiggerish and telling me she isn't trying to hit on me, I feel Pretty Damn Good.
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Feel like I am on a down turn and I can't stop it.
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I traded it in for a whole 'nother world A pirate flag and an island girl |
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Been having really distracting, intrusive thoughts all day about memories of the manic shitshow I was going through about 10-11 months ago. Have some mild anxiety going on ... but not to a manic/hypomanic extent.
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--Keegan BP1 Substance Use Disorder -- Alcohol (In Recovery) 900mg Lithium 15mg Temazepam PRN "Just Because You're Paranoid Doesn't Mean They're Not After You"
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I feel like I have to "put on the mask that everything is ok" more and more so that I don't look too crazy. I'm pretty sure some of my coworkers notice that I talk more days than others when I'm in the office with them. And it's anoying to have to walk past people I usually would talk to but can't right now. I'm just not there yet.
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Wondering when I will get over my ex husband. I was dumb enough to let him back into my life and for awhile he said all the right things and then boom, he want back to his demeaning ways. My brain only holds onto the good. I even dream about our old house and being there with him. My bipolar was partly to blame but there www a lot of issues that I tend to forget about. Just wish this was easier.
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BP II OCD Anorexia Lamictal 200mg Prozac 40mg Topamax 100mg Klonopin .5mg as needed |
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BP II OCD Anorexia Lamictal 200mg Prozac 40mg Topamax 100mg Klonopin .5mg as needed |
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Not a good day today....anxiety getting worse have been having anxiety attacks during the day
See psych Dr tomorrow Hopefully he can help Feeling nervous and scared |
![]() Anonymous45023, gina_re, OctobersBlackRose
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#23
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Started tapering off the first med last night. It's all good and I'm so excited.
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Went to my psych appointment today, no changes in meds or anything. Had a hard time getting her to understand what happened last week and how I crashed so fast with no reason or warning. Been feeling pretty good, maybe too good, idk. Just listening to music right now.
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Wir sind was wir sind English We are what we are MDD w/psychotic features, BPD |
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Got my *** up and came to work, dh had to help get me moving but I did it
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