all in all today's been a good day.

got 2 new cds delivered from amazon, watched some tv, ate pretty good- and didn't harm myself either

plus it rained.. so was able to enjoy the sound (so theraputic)

[Takeshi]

I almost got this drug screening test without my consent!

Another thing I noticed today is that it's all about the limitations of quantitative linear positivist research, again or is it? I'm not gonna read the long article in 2016! It's all about human experience, a subjective one at that. That's all I need to remember, the popular RCTs don't take that into account from the sound of it, therefore, that's not good enough evidence for me, their efficacy of any medications, may say something, then again to me personally, I refused to take the risk of shortening the mortality or the long term recovery possibility, and that's just my point of view.

Stigma (noun):

1. a mark of disgrace associated with a particular circumstance, quality, or person.

"What was she upset about?"

On another topic, I got confused again about the term "schizophrenia", I never figure it out right, Japanese words for the diagnostic doesn't sound any better, it's horrible sounding quite honestly, just saying. That's too mad.

Just past the 40th hour for me here. Peace to all of you, today.

[Wander]

On a plane flying out to Sydney any minute...yes I'm excited but still depressed.

[Nammu]

I'm glad you got to go wonder.

[Takeshi]

Good on ya, mate. I hope you had a safe trip.

Dang it, I almost forgot the great purpose of this today's post.

BP stands for British Petroleum, The oil spiller! and so is the Shell

(Please remember the gulf too, the wild life is still suffering even if you don't see it 'cos that's down at the bottom of the ocean, yes that's just a theory. Big giants are business savvy, they would stop at nothing to destroy our life, the quality of life is what matters the most, like cancer and chemo therapy, *sarcasm alert*.....let me stop here.)

I woke up at 4am yesterday, and at 6am, I took Adderall XR for the first time... 20mg.

The Adderall should have worn off by 6pm (since it lasts a maximum of 12 hours). Nope. Still hyper and can't sleep, as I'm not tired.

I'm not complaining, as I got A LOT of stuff done yesterday (woohoo!), but I feel a little hypomania coming on. BUT, I'm not looking forward to the crash, so I'm going to take advantage of this hypomania

I joined a gym yesterday and will have my first apt with a personal trainer tonight. I'm excited. this is a big step for me getting out of the house. hopefully getting fit will help ease my chronic pain. I could be on the way to profoundly changing my life. I'm excited. I'm on the depressed side lately and I hope the exercise helps ease that also, so it doesn't spiral downward farther.

[hopeless2015]

Another good day, it feels good to be productive and not have major anxiety about leaving home

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Originally Posted by ElsaMars

I joined a gym yesterday and will have my first apt with a personal trainer tonight. I'm excited. this is a big step for me getting out of the house. hopefully getting fit will help ease my chronic pain. I could be on the way to profoundly changing my life. I'm excited. I'm on the depressed side lately and I hope the exercise helps ease that also, so it doesn't spiral downward farther.

Personal trainers are great for getting motivated, so I hope you enjoy it

I got a free personal training session at my gym when I joined (it was part of a promotion), and I can't believe how much I learned in just 1 session.

Make sure your personal trainer goes over diet and proper form for using equipment. Also, make sure the person teaches you how to warm up and cool down. I never realized that I was warming up and cooling down the wrong way. The warm ups and cool downs reduced overall muscle fatigue.

I had a busy day yesterday. Met with my peer counselor and we went and ran a couple of errands I needed to do. Then I went and got fabric for my rain stick. Then went to art group and finished my rain stick. It turned out really cool. Then met my son at a Mexican restaurant and had dinner. Busy day for me. Next I'm gonna work on weaving a purse, and making a rain stick for my son.

I love this art group. It's bona fide art. Not all cheesy...

[Icare dixit]

Stable (have been for a while now). It's awful. All these greys. All my stupid behaviour to make them into blacks and whites. All the effort it takes to keep me from doing that. And I hate myself for not being appreciative and for being this hopeless, stuck yet unencumbered.

Edit:
Hopeless and it's depressing.

[Icare dixit]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

all in all today's been a good day.

got 2 new cds delivered from amazon, watched some tv, ate pretty good- and didn't harm myself either

plus it rained.. so was able to enjoy the sound (so theraputic)

I love the sound of rain! Such a soothing, comforting, pleasant sound. Also nicely distracting yet not disrupting.

[Wander]

On holiday in Sydney. Should be appreciating it but I'm drowning. So mixed. It's awful. Trying to enjoy my holiday with my parents but I feel so damn agitated and numb. Empty. Even suicidal. Feel so ungrateful. Will keep trying to enjoy myself. Two days to go.

[pirilin]

I'm here. I'm alive. I'm healthy. I'm happy. Thanks to The Good Lord. Amen.

[Coconutzo]

Originally Posted by Icare dixit

Stable (have been for a while now). It's awful. All these greys. All my stupid behaviour to make them into blacks and whites. All the effort it takes to keep me from doing that. And I hate myself for not being appreciative and for being this hopeless, stuck yet unencumbered.

Edit:
Hopeless and it's depressing.

I feel this way too often. It usually means I'm not stable but depressed-lite

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[Coconutzo]

Originally Posted by Wander

On holiday in Sydney. Should be appreciating it but I'm drowning. So mixed. It's awful. Trying to enjoy my holiday with my parents but I feel so damn agitated and numb. Empty. Even suicidal. Feel so ungrateful. Will keep trying to enjoy myself. Two days to go.

Take care. ::

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[Coconutzo]

Giggity gobblety gook, I'm starting to feel quite good.
I'm still hacking hinderences from my lungs, but here I am in a better mood. I'm sleeping less and reading more. The sun is out. I'm less of a bore(boar)

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[hopeless2015]

Been doing so well at work this week, now I feel like if I sit at this desk one more minute I'm going to lose my ****! May have to take another anxiety pill and calm the f down

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Drank some beer last night. Haven't had alcohol in a long time. I ended up vomiting for hours and remembering why I gave up alcohol. Uggg. Went to the gym last night and met with a personal trainer. I have 70lbs of fat on my body and can hardly make it through a 1 minute set without resting. I'm badly out of shape. I will keep working at improving this.

[Icare dixit]

Originally Posted by Coconutzo

I feel this way too often. It usually means I'm not stable but depressed-lite

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Yes, but it's not BP so it's stable. Ok, it's a bit BP but mostly not, but situational. That's stable.

Then again, my stable is less stable than pure BP episodes. But it's not mixed either. Not extreme enough to merit any name but stable.

There.

[Coconutzo]

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

Drank some beer last night. Haven't had alcohol in a long time. I ended up vomiting for hours and remembering why I gave up alcohol. Uggg. Went to the gym last night and met with a personal trainer. I have 70lbs of fat on my body and can hardly make it through a 1 minute set without resting. I'm badly out of shape. I will keep working at improving this.

I'm sorry you a struggling. It will get better! It's great that you are working with a trainer! I have one too, and it changed my life! It was SOOO hard when I started, but now I feel strong. When I feel awful sometimes it's the only releif I get!

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I'm doing alright. Not manic, not mixed. Slightly depressed but nothing I can't deal with. I do find the days just flowing together and barely realizing it. I'm struggling with my ED right now, but I am used to it. I need to,lose myself in a good book. I was reading a book a day and then my brain just halted. No clue.

[Unrigged64072835]

Been trying to get into photography, digital art, and music. Nada. One big fat goose egg. I can't seem to find my groove. I really need to do something. Med change, new therapy, whatever. I can't stay so uninterested in everything all the time.

[Prism Bunny]

Still extremely tired from new medication. I hope it gets better.

[hopeless2015]

So glad it's Saturday, did some laundry and ran the vacuum..ashamed to admit I don't remember the last time I did it! Husband and I are supposed to go on the motorcycle this afternoon, looking forward to it

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