what I really want ...

there is a british comedy called "the last of the supper wine" ... it is about three old retired gentlemen and their daily experiences ... I really enjoy watching this especially when I am blue ... it's not the comedy I enjoy .. but the wish I could be like them ... to enjoy your golden years with good friends ... to have those that know you and still want to be your friend ... one's that know you better than you know yourself ... I don't desire things, or wealth or anything material ... but as I grow older and nearing retirement and the end of things it is so sad to be alone .... it is so sad I have found this out so late .. I sometimes feel it is really not mental illness as much as it is loneliness .... the tortured depressed mind a product of a life spent driving others away and never developing deep lifelong friendships ...

if I seem needy, please understand, this forum is the only place I can share ... you are my "old" friends ... so be kind with each other as someday you may be in my shoes ...

this is our safe place ... our peaceful field ... to lie back in and watch the clouds drift overhead ... to be each others friends

somedays I may be down and somedays you may be .. hopefully between us we can keep each other company ...

just a reflection on a blue day ... Tigger ...

Thanks for leaving this thoughtful post without tainting it with a breathless tribute to a K-pop starlet. That was not a good look.

she's gone ... don't be mean ...

Very good point made! ((Hugs))

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Perhaps you could join a support group near you so you can be around other people? ((HUGS))

I'm with you and I understand. I'm drawn to shows and such that portray life's many relationships, especially when depth is lacking in mine.

Sending you big hugs. (((Hugs))). If you are Lonley, it's never too late to meet friends. So many groups out there. Please keep it in mind.

Hi Trigger: Seek and you shall find. Wishing you all the very best.!!!.

I will be your friend Tigger!