Weight Gain

It's possible that some of these replies contradict each other. But what it comes down to is that I eat horrible and it's hard to break that habit. I don't want to necessarily accept the weight gain, but I don't get excited to eat all the healthy foods and go to the gym regularly to lose the pounds. It is what it is. Take it day by day.

That about sums it up.

That mirror thing...I do that too. I'll walk past some clothes in a store and think, oh that's seriously cute....then I remember I can't wear things like that, not that it would even come in anything larger than a size 10 anyways.

I'm very mixed-up about my weight. I go thru periods where i champion the size-acceptance movement and tell people i am, "Large and in Charge" and eat indulgently. But then i go on diets and suffer. It's a real struggle. Like Gina, sometimes i say YOLO. I don't smoke, drink, do drugs, gamble and i'm not promiscuous -- if i overeat, well everyone's got to have one vice -- it keeps you humble. I am interested in switching up my meds for weight-neutral ones as my recent thread said. But i may have to delay things as i may start a big new project soon and i don't want to be dealing with insomnia and other med issues on top of it.

But, yeah, my weight is a source of struggle and confusion for me. I accept it for a while then i reject it for a while, repeat.

I completely get it

I've lost 60 lbs. on meds with Weight Watchers. It CAN be done! I'm working on losing more. My goal is to lose 40 more pounds.

Meds: Lithium, Trileptal, Latuda, Risperdal, Xanax XR and PRN

Lost 30 lbs on Adderall. Gained 25 back up to today. And counting.

I gained 45 pounds on quetiapine (Seroquel) in the three years that I was on it. I was a size 12 going on 14 by the end of it (US size 8-10), none of my clothes fit me anymore and it was just depressing because I love my clothes, all my dresses and skirts that I have collected over the years. I had to buy some new ones eventually. But after three years I'd had enough, it wasn't working for me; it wasn't just that I felt fat, I also felt like my brain had been replaced by a concrete block, like I wasn't really a person anymore. When I was first put on quetiapine I had been emotionally unstable my whole life (I was bipolar as a child but went undiagnosed until I was 23), so feeling empty was a great relief to me. But then I walked around like that for three years, gained all that weight, and at some point realised that I just couldn't carry on like that anymore. My life was going nowhere.

So I went back to see a psychiatrist at the community mental health team (about a year and a half ago) and was prescribed Lamictal. Once I got through the nightmarish experience of coming off quetiapine and I was just taking Lamictal the weight just started to drop off. In six months I had lost everything I gained, and I am now back to being a size 8 (US size 4) and my clothes fit me again!

I am in seriously bad shape, however. Just the worst. I am not eating much food, because I don't want it, and then I reach a point where I haven't had a meal for 48 hours (it gets worse when I'm depressed like now) and I'm trembling and feeling really weak, and then I have to force myself to go make food somehow. I always have some junk in my room, and I snack on that occasionally, but that has to be there in order for me to eat something. Last week, for example, I had two meals in two days, and then nothing for the next two days, and it's just terrible.

I have had high cholesterol a few times in the past, it runs in my family so that's mostly why, but it hasn't been high enough to cause any real concern. I know I should exercise, but I hate gyms; I like going for a run in the park or something, but running (or jogging I guess) upsets my stomach. I tell people this, and they say I shouldn't be pushing myself so hard, but the thing is I don't. It doesn't matter if I run for five or fifteen minutes, as soon as I stop running the stomach cramps will hit within a couple of minutes and I will need to be close to a toilet. The thought of that doesn't exactly make me feel more motivated.

Anyway, f*** you, bipolar disorder. You are a pest and I hate you.

The weight gain is really getting to me. I put on 15 lbs with the hormone meds from IVF that I had just gotten those pounds off, now I gained that and 15 more from meds. I work out every night at 10p just to keep my weight the same and not gain more. I hate it. I look in the mirror and think how gross I am and no wonder noone wants to touch me. Ugh.

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Btw I went from 130 to 160

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I've gained 20lbs in the past few months from meds, and I hate it, but I'm more stable now than I have been in a really long time, so it's something I accept (sort of). I'm planning on doing a wardrobe overhaul and buying more "fat clothes"...

I love cheese!
A client of mine gave me a big bag full of fresh out of her garden basil.
The first night I ate a peanut butter and basil sandwich, crazy huh? and delicious! the second night I took a creole tomatoe and sliced it and added basil then a layer of rich/lucious fresh mozerella cheese, then topped with lite balsalmic vinegrette.
Delicious!
bizi
my favorite cheese is organic valley, sharp cheddar. yum!

I just stepped on the scale. 123 pounds my ***! I look enormous! There's something wrong with my scale!

When I stopped seroquel I was pushing 140. Hated it. I was busting out of my pants. Happy they fit now. I hate shopping. It agitates me.

I had a scale that did the opposite to me. It added 22 lbs... and I hadn't checked my weight in 2 yrs. I was like, "wow i look damn good considering how much i weigh. i guess everyone carries their weight differently ". then i went to the doctor 3 weeks later, got weighed, and was like, "what happened?"

When I came off Seroquel I was 165 pounds. It was awful, I looked hideous. I mean, I'm quite hideous anyway, but that really was the worst. Going from Seroquel to Lamictal is pretty great, isn't it! I dropped down to 120 in just six months! Incredible. I'm wondering if Seroquel f***ed with my metabolism or something.

Anyway, the feeling of my brain turning into cement just made me decide that I needed to change to a different medication, and now I actually have no idea why I was on quetiapine in the first place. I have never been manic. I get hypomania, but I'm mostly depressed, so why they decided to give me an antipsychotic is beyond my comprehension.

Oh well.

Medication I'm on is making me gain weight.

I am on weight neutral meds so can't blame the meds for my 20 pound weight gain.
I blame over eating, drinking and lack of exercise and hormones.
Have been dieting this week and am down 4 pounds but know that is part water weight since I am abstaining from drinking. I went to planet fitness on saturday night and walked one hour, felt good!
bizi