Coping with stability....a strange thing

I am very stable on my meds now and although I'm glad glad glaaaaad to be rid of many darker symptoms I miss hypo/mania I miss seeing the world in a strange light
I'm bored. Does anybody else deal with this or am I being dumb lol.

yep. I most definitely miss the wild ride

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I'm still on the wild ride, I'm not sure I remember what stability feels like. Still on the waiting list to see the proper psychiatric department to get on medication and get treatment. Unfortunately our socialized healthcare system means waiting months for an appointment. The inpatient hospitals and ERs won't treat your condition, they will only help you short term with anxiety meds if you're inpatient, so I'm stuck here waiting unmedicated. It's been a month and a half....still no appointment even after two urgent referrals.

Glad I'm not the only one lol

Anxiousv......that sounds so difficult. Where are you from? I hope u get the tx you need soon!

Yes, I deal with it all the time. I very much miss being hypo. But, I've realized I can't have both stability and hypos. I tried to and would end up in a mixed episode. I wish there was something we could do to turn it on and off.

Hey Jacky and Just and Coconutzo too

I don't think your dumb, Jacky. I think it is a pondering from a reflective mood, a reality check of sorts. For me, I kind of like the 'equatorial smooth wave'. North Pole being mania and South Pole being depressive. That means I can enjoy the excitement and joy of doing something, without the impulse to take it to a risky level.
My mania requires 'damage control' and cleaning up after going over the line.
A little south of the middle keeps me grounded and in touch with my feelings without the need for isolation and a box of tissues.

Me tooo! Keep just the right amount of hypo that never turned bad. Ahhh my definition of a perfect world

I love stability. The lows scare me and I don't really get any highs.

I'm coming up on almost a year with no hm and while i recognize that it is for the best, i miss all the fun.

stable is where the horses live. even with my meds I still swing.

I have continued to swing on some meds I have been on. Do you feel if you still swing that the meds are worth it?

I'm going through the exact same thing. I'd self medicate myself into hypo and now I'm finally done and stable and plain *** bored!

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I'm hypo now. It's a good hypo. If I ever get on a cocktail which takes it away completely, I will miss it. Good mania is very pleasant for me. I get dysphoric though too so that is bad. My highs are intoxicating and I will mourn them when they are gone. I love life so much right now I'm afraid of having it ripped away. I'm anxious that all my depressive thoughts will comeback in some karmic twist of irony. Just when I love life and want to live, it will get snatched from me or something terrible will happen.

Ha!
Yes

The rides scare me because I don't look forward to the fall. Plus I don't get hypo too much and usually have the lows. I prefer stability only because I know I can get everything done that needs to be done without fear of what is around the corner.

Lately I've just wanted to let go, to hell with it, stop meds and be myself, creative, experience the hypo/ecstasy again. But I'm also so scared to stop meds... I'm stable, I should appreciate it, lately I don't so much -just want to let go and breath in the whole world all at once...