[annmaria]

Hi all

During my last manic/psychosis episode, I felt like I was having an out of body experience. It was like I was standing on the side lines watching myself wanting to help me but was unable. I could see and hear all the was happening to me, I am not sure if I was just re living the events, or in and out of reality etc.

Was wondering if anyone else had this experience, or what kind of strange or weird things happen to you during episodes.

Not sure if I am explaining myself correctly

Thanks

Annmaria

[cashart10]

Yes, as a teen, I had an out of body experience. It was as though I was floating in the corner and watching myself. It was my first experience with psychosis. It was strange and scary.

[Anxiousvalkyrie]

I have had this feeling before when manic, more than once. Even as recently as this past month. I don't guess I ever thought of it as psychosis though, perhaps something to discuss when I finally get to see the Pdoc.

[Victoria'smom]

Yeah, dereallization

[annmaria]

[QUOTE=Miguel'smom;5081111]Yeah, dereallization[/QUO

Thanks Miguel

Just looked it up will post some of the symptoms.

Depersonalization symptoms

Symptoms of depersonalization include:

Feelings that you're an outside observer of your thoughts, feelings, your body or parts of your body, perhaps as if you were floating in air above yourself
Feeling like a robot or that you're not in control of your speech or movements
The sense that your body, legs or arms appear distorted, enlarged or shrunken, or that your head is wrapped in cotton
Emotional or physical numbness of your senses or responses to the world around you
A sense that your memories lack emotion, and that they may or may not be your own memories

Derealization symptoms

Symptoms of derealization include:

Feelings of being alienated from or unfamiliar with your surroundings, perhaps like you're living in a movie
Feeling emotionally disconnected from people you care about, as if you were separated by a glass wall
Surroundings that appear distorted, blurry, colorless, two-dimensional or artificial, or a heightened awareness and clarity of your surroundings
Distortions in perception of time, such as recent events feeling like distant past
Distortions of distance and the size and shape of objects
Episodes of depersonalization-derealization disorder may last hours, days, weeks or even months at a time. In some people, these episodes turn into ongoing feelings of depersonalization or derealization that may periodically get better or worse.

In this disorder, feelings of depersonalization and derealization aren't directly caused by drugs, alcohol, a mental health disorder or a medical condition.

[CobolCapsule]

During my manic psychotic breakdown, I decided destroying my entire apartment was the thing to do, and i mean destroy everything. I took a drill and drilled holes in all my electronics and the walls also. Tore down the glass mirror in my bathroom, spray painted the walls and patio door. Hung up banners outside my patio, that said how much i hate living there. I threw plants out onto the parking lot. Finally somebody called the cops about all the noise, and they took me to psychiatric care, where i was introduced to anti psychotics. Since then i have been able to control myself. I guess it would be the meds. I look back on it and laugh a little now I just thought i would share this. . It seemed like the appropriate thread.