Today I leaned against the door...

Hey IZ! Sorry I am late coming back around .. Life got hold of me and I'm feeling scattered like a egg hitting the floor at 102 mph.

I hope that things have settled down for you.. Be safe and take it easy on yourself. Reach out and get the help that need... However that works out best for you. The first step is the toughest as you well know

Binge watching TV and sleeping is often the best medicine when the world and everything in it is too loud and overbearing. I often think cupcakes and icecream are helpful in drowning out the roar

Much love

Hi Inner zone. I take naps when things get overwhelming, and binge watch shows on Netflix,lol. It helps when my medications are not enough. I was on medicaid for a while and went through the county. Found a great psychiatrist. He's the one that got me stable. Been seeing him for two years. Now my. Now my medicaid is stopping come tomorrow and I'll just have straight medicare , which he doesn't take so I had to find a new psychiatrist , and psychologist. Scary. I got a little depressed about. I'm doing okay now, but I'm still anxious about seeing them both for the first time. Is he going to want to.change my medications, will we get along, will he listens to me? I know though that if he doesn't work out I can try another Dr, and I can always get more refills from my old Dr. It's made me a little anxious, but I'll be okay. I hope that your nurse practioner is able to work things out so that you.have peace. God bless you

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So many hugs and all of my love to you! I am so sorry you are struggling so badly.

Hey there, I'm all too familiar with not being able to open the door of this apartment, that is why the peephole has been covered up now and..



These are just a reminder that the door is just a door, the issue for me was the invisible door that was dividing me from everything else.

The monstrosity of the deadened force is vacillating and self-castigating. I hope you're not being too hard on yourself, you probably made the decision that you needed at the time, the fear and the paranoia might not leave you alone anyways. Like someone before me said, you made it to the door and faced your fear. So the next time the fear comes back and try to corner you, you owe it to yourself to do something about it. I'm not trying to say to toughen up and be the end of it. I'm pleased that you reached out and gave us those words.

Hmm...are you serious? No offence but binge watching TV will never work for me, that's toxic. I'd watch the sunrise, the sunset or a starry sky and try to neutralize the negative perspectives, the world could still be beautiful. Same/opposite electric charges repel/attract each other, forget chemical imbalance for a sec, we are made of electron and stuff, the positive and the negative charge.

Do I make any sense at all? Been here for hours and this is all I got, so sorry that I'm useless. Feel better.

ETA: Feeling the little charge and one has to make sure that he's alive. TV kills it. The radio would be a better choice.