I hate my sofa

I have spent many months depressed sitting on my sofa, that I now hate it so much. I have only managed to get from the bed to the sofa for many months. Recently things have improved I am starting slowly to function. Again I am having only good days with some functioning not fully, and then back to bad days. Thank God for the partial good days.

Today is a partial day, managed to go out and attend appointment. Now back on sofa but really want to do something else. Motivation is low but I am anxious now to start to get back to the baseline. My T. said to be kind to myself and just try to do small things. If I need a sofa time have it without giving myself a hard time. My mind is so bored when it stops racing or having intrusive thoughts. I feel lethargic and energyless but I really just want to function fully. My meds have been increased and I am hoping my partial days become full days.

I am bored of being bored, want to do so much, but can't. It's so frustrating I hate bipolar. I am having a why me day also feeling pretty P***ed off with it all. Feeling very sorry for my sad ***** today, had enough really and I am trying so hard. I keep trying to look for the positives but negativity keeps raising its ugly head.

Today, I hate my sofa, negative thoughts, and bipolar depression. Thanks for allowing me to vent which I also hate doing


What are the things you hate about bipolar?

Maybe you can lie on the sofa and do something productive? I write software and the sofa is perfect for that. Just to desentisise the lying on the sofa and not doing anything useful and being depressed situation.

I used to ask myself "why me?", but not anymore. BP is not only about losing, you also gain: you learn from any experience. Maybe because we experience so much different things (arguably different), we learn really a lot compared to most people that way.