Home Menu

Menu


Reply
Thread Tools Display Modes
  #1  
Old Jun 06, 2016, 06:27 PM
notthisagain's Avatar
notthisagain notthisagain is offline
Member
 
Member Since: Apr 2014
Location: PA
Posts: 211
I need to reach out, but I am not quite sure what to say, but here goes:

It's frustrating to me that I have days where I feel yes, I've really got this, and then there are days like today where I am having a really hard time functioning. I called into work to use FMLA for today because I feel like I am cracking under the weight of everything. The work I do is sales, and it is tough enough dealing with customers, but it doesn't help that my manager is, well, less than supportive. My boyfriend, who will most likely be an ex soon, has no interest in understanding my MI. Every time I try to explain what is going on, he insists that he has gone through much worse than I have in my life. It's not a contest! To make matters worse, he is accusing me of cheating because I have guy friends that I talk to. It takes so much emotional energy to try to defend myself against his accusations. I am currently filing for bankruptcy because of bipolar-related issues and also because of a string of unfortunate events that hit me one after another for like two years straight. The petition was supposed to be filed by the 4th and I have not heard an update yet. So far, my case was forwarded to another law firm and then the paralegal to whom I was sending my documents left the law firm. I don't even get any respite in my sleep. I have recurring dreams where I am at work or in school and there was an assignment that I haven't completed, or I am lost and I don't know how to get to where I need to be. I am so tired and exhausted from all of this.

On Thursday this week, I have appointments with both my T and my pdoc and I don't know what to say. It's one thing to take courses and learn about this stuff, but it is another having to live with it day in and day out. My T will give me recommendations on books to read, and I am trying to help myself the best way that I can, but it doesn't do a lot of good when I am so depressed and anxious that I cannot focus on the book I am supposed to be reading. I hate feeling so alone and let down. Ugh. I just need some freaking help!
Hugs from:
Anonymous45023, Anonymous48850, Atypical_Disaster, cashart10, Crazy Hitch, JustJace2u, MusicLover82, pirilin, violetgreen, Wander, ~Christina

advertisement
  #2  
Old Jun 06, 2016, 06:37 PM
JustJace2u's Avatar
JustJace2u JustJace2u is offline
Grand Poohbah
 
Member Since: May 2016
Location: Chicago
Posts: 1,928
Just be as honest with them as you can.
  #3  
Old Jun 06, 2016, 07:20 PM
Wander's Avatar
Wander Wander is offline
Grand Magnate
 
Member Since: Jul 2014
Location: Milky Way
Posts: 4,746
Thanks for reaching out to us and don't forget to keep doing it; we are here for you! What an awful position to be in. If that difficult manager treats you unfairly I would report her to HR or a more senior boss. It is unacceptable. I worry about my job as I keep having to take time off work. It is very stressful, especially trying to explain it to colleges and managers. The few colleagues I chose to tell are very supportive, in fact they visited me in hospital. However the current direct manager I have is very judgemental about these things and I expect her to find out about my mental illness soo. This scares me.

Be honest but pick the people you are honest with if possible. Good luck!!
__________________
Bipolar 1 with psychotic features
PTSD




"Phew! For a minute there I lost myself."

'Karma Police' by Radiohead
Thanks for this!
JustJace2u
  #4  
Old Jun 06, 2016, 09:56 PM
MusicLover82 MusicLover82 is offline
Grand Member
 
Member Since: Mar 2016
Location: USA
Posts: 971
I'm sorry you're having such a rough time. Sending you well-wishes!
__________________
...Out of night and alarm
Out of terrible dreams
Reach me your hand!
This is the meaning that we suffered in sleep:
The white peace of the waking.
~Edna St. Vincent Millay, "Song of the Nations"~

Diagnoses: Bipolar 2, OCD, Chronic Worrywart
Meds: Lithium (reducing), Trileptal, Latuda, Risperdal, Klonopin and Xanax PRN
  #5  
Old Jun 06, 2016, 11:26 PM
Manic Trance's Avatar
Manic Trance Manic Trance is offline
Member
 
Member Since: Oct 2013
Location: NYC
Posts: 268
Is there something you can do that you enjoy and look forward to?
I understand being completely taken in by work to the point that you think about it while you are asleep, and become obsessed with problematic relationships there etc.
And to have people in your life who don't understand.
And to have severe financiaily problems.
And to be so freaked out that I can't read.
So I've been there.
Hang in...
/(
MT
__________________
Whether you are a big deal or a small deal, there is always some kind of a deal going on.

- Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche
  #6  
Old Jun 07, 2016, 08:54 AM
MusicLover82 MusicLover82 is offline
Grand Member
 
Member Since: Mar 2016
Location: USA
Posts: 971
How are you feeling today?
__________________
...Out of night and alarm
Out of terrible dreams
Reach me your hand!
This is the meaning that we suffered in sleep:
The white peace of the waking.
~Edna St. Vincent Millay, "Song of the Nations"~

Diagnoses: Bipolar 2, OCD, Chronic Worrywart
Meds: Lithium (reducing), Trileptal, Latuda, Risperdal, Klonopin and Xanax PRN
  #7  
Old Jun 07, 2016, 11:13 PM
Anonymous45023
Guest
 
Posts: n/a
(((((((((Notthisagain))))))))) Glad you reached out. You are not alone
  #8  
Old Jun 08, 2016, 04:15 AM
Crazy Hitch's Avatar
Crazy Hitch Crazy Hitch is offline
ɘvlovƎ
 
Member Since: Nov 2013
Location: Australia
Posts: 28,766
I hope you're feeling better today
Reply
Views: 545

attentionThis is an old thread. You probably should not post your reply to it, as the original poster is unlikely to see it.




All times are GMT -5. The time now is 10:30 AM.
Powered by vBulletin® — Copyright © 2000 - 2025, Jelsoft Enterprises Ltd.




 

My Support Forums

My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.

 

Helplines and Lifelines

The material on this site is for informational purposes only, and is not a substitute for medical advice, diagnosis or treatment provided by a qualified health care provider.

Always consult your doctor or mental health professional before trying anything you read here.