Questions: Bipolar version

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are you currently putting something off you know you should be doing?

Sleep. Although I can't fall asleep. But I need to.

Have you ever been psychotic and had a delusion? What was it about?

many times. idont remember most of them. Maybe one time I thought I was half alien?

when were you dx and how long have you had bp?



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I was diagnosed in 2010 aged 25. Although they say I have had it since I was a teenager

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Question: What is your favourite method of relaxing?

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Reading

Have you ever gone to a local bipolar support group?

I'm going to be attending one next month when it starts up. In my area there has been no bipolar groups to go to....

Question: Do you find CBT to be helpful or has it opened up old wounds and or is still helpful?

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Ugh I'm anti-CBT. Too Pavlovian dog lol

What's the longest period of time you've been in therapy?

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2 1/2 years

Where do you get your strength?

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mostly from emilie autumn

her music really strikes a cord with me, and when i'm feeling down or upset- or just in need of comforting, on goes her album and i feel better, all the time

were you diagnosed bipolar first time, or were you miss diagnosed before bipolar

Bipolar first but after 12 years of struggle

What's your spirit animal?

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Rapidash the Pokémon

Do you feel like you have a life worth living?

Not right now and I'm drinking about it.

Greatest strength?

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telling jokes (just have a thing for it)

greatest weakness?

I'm lazy

What are you most passionate about?

Life - all of it. Gimme, lol

What do you do to relax?

Listen to music or go for a walk (or both).

What was the last thing to make you laugh out loud for real, like a total guffaw?

My cat daily just for being a cat...(we decided that he is a comfort animal)

When "things" happen to you while manic that are unusual how do you reconcile that you might have a spiritual experience or you might just be imagining it under mild psychosis?

My boyfriend being silly. He is the funniest person in the world.

Deepest fear?

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agoraphobia!

most unusual habbit

TimTheEnchanter's question - I don't have positive spiritual experiences when I'm (hypo)manic. I'm almost always mixed when I am hypomanic, which means I have both anxiety and depression rather than anything euphoric. When I'm symptomatic, I feel totally cut off from anything spiritual.

And shattered_sanity's question - probably my trichotillomania. Supposedly 1% out something of the population has it, so some would say that it isn't unusual, but I know only one or two people in real life. I pull out my body hair compulsively without conscious thought so it has been nearly impossible to stop, though it has been lots better recently since I started talking to my therapist about it and got some strategies.

Do you fear your next episode?

I expect episodes but I fear how my life will exist around it. I fear being truthful about being unwell. A lot of guilt and feeling a burden. And I fear having to shift so much of my responsibilities to my partner (who doesn't always handle that well). I think that is what I fear the most.

Do you feel like you are always masking being unwell to some extent?

Yes. I never am not cycling, just sometimes it's not very bad. Clozaril does a better job at limiting it than anything else ever has.

Do you have meds you can adjust the dosage of within a certain range?

No.

On a normal night's sleep, how many hours are good for you?

With my current meds I need 10-12 hours to get past the grogginess. Hopefully I'll be able to slowly lower my clozaril until I am not quite so sedated.

What was your first bipolar symptom?