Just a cool check-in thread here... How is your life going so far?

My life is going pretty well for the most part. I'm finally able to hold down a job. That's gotta be worth something, right? Also, I'm somewhat stable despite not being able to feel sadness, which I admit is kinda weird.

[hopeless2015]

Ups and downs but trying to maintain some stability, the depression has eased up some and I'm so very thankful

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[bizi]

I am doing quite well, though I wish I had some motivation to clean my house.
bizi

[pirilin]

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.

[JustJace2u]

Well, I suppose it could be worse, but as you already know...today just really sucked in general.

[MusicLover82]

Mentally, I'm doing so much better. Physically, I have some potentially serious issues along with side effects from the meds. So it's back to the pdoc this week to see what's going to happen. Poop.

But I'd say, overall, my life is good. I have a lot of wonderful friends and family who love me. And I'm happy in spite of health issues (both physical and mental). I'm not fed up. And I'm not going to quit fighting for that perfect balance (or close enough).

has my life turned out how i hoped?. no

is my life worth the living?

probably not

what i can say though is that it is what it is- certainly not the worst life out their but pretty bad

but you work with what you've got

[Wild Coyote]

I'm negotiating my way through a very rough patch.
Have been exhausted. Feeling depleted.

Have had severe relentless pain for a long time -- with many other medical complications. Despite pain meds, pain was too much, 24/7. It's "neuropathic." Doctors were trying to help. yet could not help enough.
After a year of this, it kinda "pushed me over the edge." it feels like severe torture. It set off insomnia, C-PTSD and depression, which then set off a "mixed episode."

I have formulated a topical med and topical supplement protocol which is proving helpful, along with narcotic pain meds, 24/7 . I also adhere to an anti-inflammatory diet.

Lots of ongoing research on my part to keep finding/trying options. Lots of intensive self-care to stay balanced.

Unable to work, which is very upsetting to me. Trying to achieve a balance with acceptance as well. Overall, my "challenges" have been increasing.
Some of the "conditions" are progressive in nature. Some started 30 yrs ago now.

I love life and people. I still want to "play" and enjoy life.
I tend to be very hopeful, which may be a bit delusional, as doctors have told me they have little hope of seeing positive changes. Too bad for them. How can they truly help if they've "given up?"

I've always welcomed a formidable challenge. I now have several! Lol.



WC

[Wander]

My life has been both beautiful and a disaster. Most of my life has been impacted and effected by severe mental illness. This has stolen so much from me, traumatised me and broken my heart. Still there has been so much joy, great experiences and deep connection with people and the world around me. So far, at 40, I have achieved little but I have hope I will be more productive from now. Just this week I started grieving my past but I see this as a stepping stone to a positive future. I have learnt so much and I intend to do all I can to live a wonderful life.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Wander

My life has been both beautiful and a disaster. Most of my life has been impacted and effected by severe mental illness. This has stolen so much from me, traumatised me and broken my heart. Still there has been so much joy, great experiences and deep connection with people and the world around me. So far, at 40, I have achieved little but I have hope I will be more productive from now. Just this week I started grieving my past but I see this as a stepping stone to a positive future. I have learnt so much and I intend to do all I can to live a wonderful life.

Hi Wander,

I can feel the sincerity and Truth in your post.

I am very sorry for the sense of trauma and loss.

I honestly believe we are given opportunities to grow as we deal with great challenges. Sometimes our hearts break wide open, truly challenging us to live with wide-open hearts. Our "soul growth" and sharing may be our significant accomplishment as well as our major contribution to society.

You have an amazing heart which comes through, loud and clear every time I read one of your posts. I benefit greatly.

Thank you!

WC

[Wander]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Hi Wander,

I can feel the sincerity and Truth in your post.

I am very sorry for the sense of trauma and loss.

I honestly believe we are given opportunities to grow as we deal with great challenges. Sometimes our hearts break wide open, truly challenging us to live with wide-open hearts. Our "soul growth" and sharing may be our significant accomplishment as well as our major contribution to society.

You have an amazing heart which comes through, loud and clear every time I read one of your posts. I benefit greatly.

Thank you!


WC

Thank you so much for this post. You have an amazing heart too and I am so thankful for it. Love how you send your love through hugs. I sincerely wish you peace.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I'm negotiating my way through a very rough patch.
Have been exhausted. Feeling depleted.

Have had severe relentless pain for a long time -- with many other medical complications. Despite pain meds, pain was too much, 24/7. It's "neuropathic." Doctors were trying to help. yet could not help enough.
After a year of this, it kinda "pushed me over the edge." it feels like severe torture. It set off insomnia, C-PTSD and depression, which then set off a "mixed episode."

I have formulated a topical med and topical supplement protocol which is proving helpful, along with narcotic pain meds, 24/7 . I also adhere to an anti-inflammatory diet.

Lots of ongoing research on my part to keep finding/trying options. Lots of intensive self-care to stay balanced.

Unable to work, which is very upsetting to me. Trying to achieve a balance with acceptance as well. Overall, my "challenges" have been increasing.
Some of the "conditions" are progressive in nature. Some started 30 yrs ago now.

I love life and people. I still want to "play" and enjoy life.
I tend to be very hopeful, which may be a bit delusional, as doctors have told me they have little hope of seeing positive changes. Too bad for them. How can they truly help if they've "given up?"

I've always welcomed a formidable challenge. I now have several! Lol.



WC

Just seeing this. I am so sorry for all of your pain.
You are being very brave and are a beacon of light for those who suffer here so thank you for that.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by bizi

Just seeing this. I am so sorry for all of your pain.
You are being very brave and are a beacon of light for those who suffer here so thank you for that.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

(((((( Bizi ))))))

Thank you. It means a lot coming from you!

[Gabyunbound]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Hi Wander,

I can feel the sincerity and Truth in your post.

I am very sorry for the sense of trauma and loss.

I honestly believe we are given opportunities to grow as we deal with great challenges. Sometimes our hearts break wide open, truly challenging us to live with wide-open hearts. Our "soul growth" and sharing may be our significant accomplishment as well as our major contribution to society.

You have an amazing heart which comes through, loud and clear every time I read one of your posts. I benefit greatly.

Thank you!

WC

This is so beautifully written. You help so many people here. You just helped me answer the self-talk issue I'm having re my thread -I'm going to keep in mind what you said, as others surely will too. Thank you!!

[OctobersBlackRose]

I thought things were.going right for me for once, then something had to come along and mess it all up, and now I have to worry about losing all my benefits, services etc.

When it's good, it's REALLY GOOD, and when it's bad, it's REALLY BAD. most of the time, it's in the middle. I have sooooooo many blessings in my life and feel very grateful, but life is also very hard at times. As long as I'm not depressed, I appreciate my life, flaws and all.

Originally Posted by OctobersBlackRose

I thought things were.going right for me for once, then something had to come along and mess it all up, and now I have to worry about losing all my benefits, services etc.

Sorry to hear that

I hope things work out for you in the end. I know life can throw curveballs sometimes.

[wildflowerchild25]

It's certainly not what I expected it to be, but I've made the most out of what I've been give right now it's going well.

[st0psign]

my life has been hell on earth so far... so no where but up to go right?

[OctobersBlackRose]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Sorry to hear that

I hope things work out for you in the end. I know life can throw curveballs sometimes.

Thank you, I hoping it all works out in the end, but I just have to take.things as the come.right now...

[st0psign]

**** storm