[SpasticBliss]

I guess I'm getting a little better at not running my mouth, but I didn't realize how bad it is until recently. I'm not manic, I'm sleeping and eating (not enough). If anything I'm a little depressed. I haven't been showering or cleaning the house.

First, I'm not a gossip, but I tell people almost everything about myself my interactions with others. I trust people too much. Then as soon as I tell a story of what someone said or did, I walk away thinking, "Oh god, that's going to get back to them and it's going to turn into a nightmare."

I have to get a handle on the talking and the paranoia. My whole thing is, I always think every time I screw up (or at least think I have) that I will stop, then I have to just wait it out for a while and see if someone tries to kill me or gets really mad or something crazy happens.

Then it goes away and I do something stupid again! It's a vicious cycle. I have to break it!

I can definately relate to this. When I'm hypo/manic, I divulge WAY too much personal information about myself and others. I'm not normally a gossip, nor do I respect gossipy behavior so when I come down, I feel so ashamed, paranoid, embarrassed and scared that someone will retaliate for something I said. Sometimes I cannot even remember what/if I said anything, but I get a strong feeling I did and it stirs many unhealthy thoughts and behaviors. (((Hugs)))

[SpasticBliss]

Thanks, Elsa. I really have to work on it, but I can't dwell and scan my brain and worry about every conversation I've had with anyone at any point. It's really maddening.

Then people say, "Oh, don't worry about what people think." Well, of course I do, I don't want them to take what I've said the wrong way or if I get distracted or nervous and I don't complete a thought or blank out, then I start qualifying what I said, then I get paranoid, then I look guilty... OMG!!!!!!

There, got that out of my system. Help? Please?

[Wonderfalls]

It's a silly thing to say. Of course you should worry about what people think; people are a huge part of life. If you are hypomanic are you on some kind of drug to help ease it? Also therapy, even if it is just your default mode.

[dwr3]

Thanks, Elsa. I really have to work on it, but I can't dwell and scan my brain and worry about every conversation I've had with anyone at any point. It's really maddening.

Then people say, "Oh, don't worry about what people think." Well, of course I do, I don't want them to take what I've said the wrong way or if I get distracted or nervous and I don't complete a thought or blank out, then I start qualifying what I said, then I get paranoid, then I look guilty... OMG!!!!!!

Yup, knoe exactly how it feels.

I can totally relate to that. I don't filter out what I can or cannot say during on spot conversations. And I've been in trouble for that many times. And then I also get this kind of paranoia and tell myself I'll stop, but it just adds to the stress and nothing works out. For example, recently I left my job and I live in a small town and was on a job interview in a type of shop just like the previous one. And the boss was very likely to know my previous boss which I had a good contact with, still - she was asking me a lot to get to know as much information as possible of what I was thinking of the last employer and his business - and I started saying everything straight off, including the fact we were not printing all the paper bills we should and blabbering - when I got confused about how we were counting our monthly wages - that oh, sometimes my co worker (which I liked also) would not count enough, etc etc. And then I went out, thought about it and was like Sweet Jesus, you stupid...
I stopped talking to my co worker, met my boss while I was shopping, he was behind me, but I was too paranoid to react and talk to him and was thinking a lot about that the possibility of them knowing each other was pretty high because my boss was even talking once about talking to some other lady who had a shop like this and just grew completely embarassed...
I am also very critical and been even verbally and physically attacked for that during a party.
I'm not bipolar.

[Wild Coyote]

When I am hypo, I get nervous I'll tell some confidential piece of info.
I'll even isolate so I don't accidentally do so.
Once I feel I have control, I am much more comfortable socializing.

I had a traumatic brain injury approx. 3 years ago. For a few months, I lost a lot of impulse control. It was so strange to observe myself trying to interact/negotiate social situations with little impulse control.


WC

[Unrigged64072835]

I know when I'm hypomanic I divulge too much. My social circle is very small, though, so there isn't too much damage control.