Hyper.../o?

I didn't sleep much for some days in a row because of going to bed late (I have to get up at the crack of dawn because have a very very long commute) and my cat waking me up even earlier because of munchies. Lack of sleep is a big trigger for me.

Problem is I'm very hyper at this point and don't WANT to go to sleep. Don't feel I can and don't want to. Though I know this could get me into trouble I still so intensely don't want to. I haven't been hypo for 2 years, found a great med combo for me. I'm afraid I'm leaning towards getting hypo, early stages.

What do you do to force yourself to want to sleep? I know I could take more Seroquel, but... I don't want to, afraid it will actually put me to sleep. Or maybe it wouldn't which would make it moot. Maybe I want to be hypo, don't even know.

So, as I say, when you don't want to sleep for anything, what do you do to convince yourself? In a big way, I don't want to be convinced, but I thought I'd ask you guys anyway, because I know deep down it's not good for me...

sounds like you like being hypo.
bizi

I do, I miss it. But I also know what happens next if I don't head it off. The squirminess that makes me want to jump out of my skin, the paranoia, the unfiltered running of my mouth, being convinced that I'm the most brilliant person in the world and then off to the races with delusions, etc.

But I have a feeling that I can control this so that it won't get to that point. At some point I could take a boatload of Seroquel which may make me sleep and get out od this...when I'm ready. It's such a fine line, a tightrope walk between sanity and insanity and the more you careen down the road towards insanity, the more likely it is that you'll fall off of that tightrope.

Yeah, you sound a little hypo to me, I don't have any advice, but sending you hugs

Gaby, where are you now?

I actually ended up falling asleep for some 4-5 hours and am now calm. You're right, Bizi, I wanted to go hypo, I essentially wanted to get high There's a euphoric stage of it before it turns ugly on me and that's what I longed for. I think I was in the early stages and then finally getting some sleep calmed me. Now I'm feeling (situationally) down because of the above. Feel blah. Anyway, it seems no hypomania for me...

I'm very sensitive sleep-wise, too. I need to retire at the same time each night, need to let my body/mind process/unwind, and then sleep.

I've had two late nights this week, out of necessity, and its thrown me off.
I start to get hypo fast.

Tonight I will do all I can to retire on time and to sleep as well as possible.
I am already "ready" (in my mind) and looking forward to it. I need to be as stable as possible.


WC