I miss the 'me' I was when I was hypomanic. Happy and empowered to live life fully.

[hopeless2015]

I miss laughter I don't remember the last time I truly laughed

[BeyondtheRainbow]

my career. I miss it every day and I haven't worked in 5 years now. It was what I loved and who I was.

I miss my childhood actually.

I had no MI, I had loads of friends who I could play with all day, no job to worry about, no money to worry about. Life was grand! I loved living carefree.

[Unrigged64072835]

I miss my old job. At least the paycheck and the camaraderie. I don't miss the shouting matches between the customers and the government that much.

I also miss some of my independence. Driving a car and going out by myself.

[NoIdeaWhatToDo]

I just read some of the things I wrote years ago about my hypo experiences. I miss the creativity, the motivation, the drive - I miss the fun parts of it. I realized that I've had some hypo episodes since that time, but just with the irritability, anger, and anxiety aspects - none of the fun stuff. I really miss that.

[BipolaRNurse]

I miss having a career. I haven't worked in 2 1/2 years and will probably never work again.

[xRavenx]

I miss being younger. I also miss the good parts of hypomania....that carefree feeling, doing fun things, having confidence during the peak of it. Still though, some of the things I miss resulted in very bad consequences.

[fairydustgirl]

I miss being me, before I got sick...the stay at home mom who had a great relationship with my kids, volunteered at pta and my kids classrooms. I miss my old ordinary life.

[Wander]

I miss being really creative and writing 20 songs a year. Once the trauma hit me at age 22 my creativity was shut down and I still struggle to find it.

[NSNW1218]

Originally Posted by fairydustgirl

I miss being me, before I got sick...the stay at home mom who had a great relationship with my kids, volunteered at pta and my kids classrooms. I miss my old ordinary life.

Can relate to this

[1278]

I just miss the old me, even though life was still hard, with the tumultuous relationship with my parents and brother, puberty, stress to excel from high school and uni, I was a lot stronger, I could handle my ****, I wasn't a complete and utter mess.

[OctobersBlackRose]

My childhood, and the me when I was in college, I miss.that level of functioning. I also miss my hypomanias, (well the fun ones at least).

I miss..

1. not feeling suicidal (starting most days and continuing with, I wish i was dead) that's not always been the case

2. the drink sunny delight (I loved it back in the 90's!)

3. my friend bethany (who killed herself)

4. my good memory

5. eating well (when I was a kid, no way did i binge). now my eating is so diffrent

6. my original playstation

7. not being in hospital as much as i am now

8. deecent sleep

9. my childhood (i mourn for it being cut so short)

10. good physical health (and feeling my age)

11. a quiet head (those voices have plenty of downsides)

Oh i have another.

12. knowing who I am and making plans with my life (now I just want it to stop)

Being functional and productive with a routine.

Having my ex best friends there.

Feeling ok.

[Fuzzybear]

Not feeling this constant pain ...
(Many other (people and) things...)

[Yours_Truly]

I miss many of the same things others do. I probably miss my 17-20 yrs most of all. I was out of the hell of school and was taking time off before starting college. I finally had some confidence in my appearance, took my youthful body for youthful granted, had a good little group of friends including boyfriends, didn't have all the adult responsibilities and wasn't expected yet to know what I wanted to do with the rest of my life. I guess I was what they call ‘‘beginning to blossom.” It was a really nice time for me. I don’t know what happened after that. Instead of things just continuing in an upward trajectory, hell even straight ahead, they just seemed to decline from there.

[whoamihere]

I miss my memory and my confidence. I used to be great at my job but now I just get by. Meds have taken my memory and by default by confidence.

[jacky8807]

I miss a lot but mostly my brain. I use to be so quick an easy learner bright and confident in my capabilities.
It returns during hypo but for the most part I feel like bipolar episodes have caused like ....idk brain damage

[Wild Coyote]

I miss my career, the ability to quickly attain almost any goal I had set, many "old friends" (very judgmental of my experience with medical illnesses, severe pain, etc.), good times, carefree times -- the way things were before more trauma/tragedy!


WC

[jpb4815]

I miss Jerry, I followed the Grateful Dead for years before I finally went to college. Looking back on that time it was one giant hypo/manic episode.. but boy was it fun!

[bioChE]

Originally Posted by jpb4815

I miss Jerry, I followed the Grateful Dead for years before I finally went to college. Looking back on that time it was one giant hypo/manic episode.. but boy was it fun!

Fueled by lots of acid and weed, mucho manic fun

[gayleggg]

I miss the energy.

I miss enjoying being with people other than my husband - just getting together with friends and having a laugh.

I miss being good with sums.

I miss being an avid reader.

I miss having a good memory.

I miss having energy and stamina.

I miss being attractive.

I miss feeling excited about the future.

I miss the ability to travel.

I miss feeling confident about something.