[boogiesmash]

So I've been absent lately on the forum. I felt ashamed from my mini breakdown and downfall. I've spent days just staring at my ceiling and in bed. Haven't been suicidal, but hopeless and frustrated. Met with my pdoc today and told her about how I was doing recently (except benzo incident) and she decided to put me on pristiq. Now she is taking me off of cymbalta and upping me on pristiq and this is all going to be a month long project. She had to write down the instructions because it was all confusing, take half one day take pristiq other then two cymbalta and now I'm confused again lol.

She did tell me an interesting point, that I will get depressed during this phase. She wrote me a note for work that I may miss a day or two due to depression for the next four weeks. I don't want to feel worse than I did. She also told me if I feel suicidal or any thoughts go to er immediately.

I am hoping pristiq is a godsend cause I want to enjoy life. I told her I don't feel suicidal, but I don't feel as if I'm living. Sorta like a prisoner.

[Skeezyks]

Hi boogiesmash: I'm sorry you have been struggling. I'm glad you had the opportunity to see your pdoc. (I have my "annual" pdoc appointment coming up in a couple of weeks... not sure what I'm going to say. I may post something about it, here on PC, before I go.) It sounds as though you have a pretty thoughtful pdoc. That's certainly a blessing. Hope the med. change makes for a positive change in your day-to-day life.

[hopeless2015]

Hey Boogie sorry your going through this but we are all here for you....hopefully the meds change will do the trick for you. Hugs

[Unrigged64072835]

Sorry you're going through this depression. I hope the med change works out for you.

[Gabyunbound]

I hope the Pristiq helps! I'm baffled though about your pdoc being so sure you will be depressed, just because that could potentially turn into a self-fulfilling prophecy, so I really don't get that.

But you need to get back to truly living and I so hope this change will help that. And please don't feel embarrassed by sharing how you've felt, that's what this forum is for; people don't and won't judge you for it.

[boogiesmash]

Originally Posted by Gabyunbound

I hope the Pristiq helps! I'm baffled though about your pdoc being so sure you will be depressed, just because that could potentially turn into a self-fulfilling prophecy, so I really don't get that.

But you need to get back to truly living and I so hope this change will help that. And please don't feel embarrassed by sharing how you've felt, that's what this forum is for; people don't and won't judge you for it.

Maybe she was trying to hint (hey jerk I'm giving you free days to take off of work) lol. Btw took off of work two days not cause I was depressed but I pinched a nerve and it had me in a lot of pain. Not to make even more confusing the steroid I got came with instructions like weaning off of cymbalta two for breakfast one day then one lunch and dinner one bedtime 2 except day 3 which goes down to one etc lol.