Okay, I don't think this is yet major? Afterall, I recognize this is happening. My boyfriend has thus far been able to talk me down and talk sense into me. Still, I will admit I am not entirely convinced no one was out to deliberately hurt me.

I have the tendancy to jump to conclusions. Usually they are worse case scenarios. This has always been a problem. I've ruined relationships and jobs because of it. Only it usually happens quite sporadically - until this last month.

On several occassions events have unfolded where I truly believed people have been out to get me or hurt me deliberately. In one case my cousin was a real bonehead and I was hurt - only at the time I was convinced she'd set out to do so on purpose. I unfortunately reacted and I doubt she will ever talk to me again. In the case of my support group, for weeks now I have felt totally sure they are ganging up on me to exclude and hurt me. To the point I have been convinced they are talking about me behind my back and strategizing how to hurt me. On another matter I was turned over for a volunteer position and immediately jumped to the conclusion someone was secretly getting back at me. Once again I had a man talk agressively to me and I jumped to the conclusion he would kill me. There's been several other incidents too. Thank goodness the boyfriend was able to sit me down before I reacted in someway that would have caused a great deal of trouble for me.

The thing is, I'm pretty pretty sure I am not manic. Isn't that when delusions are supposed to occur?

I'm not so much looking for answers as struggling with this and feeling the need to share. Hopefully I am not the only one experiencing this.

[NoIdeaWhatToDo]

That must be really unsettling, justafriend. I'm glad your boyfriend is there to help you navigate all this and identify when your thought patterns are tending towards the delusional side.

Are you experiencing any other mood symptoms right now?

I'm dealing with many of the same issues. Day before last there were some workers behind the fence in my backyard. I was sure they were screaming at me, threatening me, trying to get my attention to scare me....I ran back in the house in a panic and my husband was able to talk me down. I don't know what happened....why is everyone so quick to assume this was benign....my life might be in danger and nobody really investigates anything. I try to ignore it and go about my life but it's not easy.

I want to join a support group but I'm so scared of being intentionally alienated to torture me that I can't make it there.

I'm sorry you are suffering....I hope you are safe.

Originally Posted by NoIdeaWhatToDo

Are you experiencing any other mood symptoms right now?

Well, I'm certainly not depressed. I am elevated to a degree but I don't think it is anything unusual. I simply have been very socially active and thus have had stuff to look forward to that puts a smile on my face.

About the only thing that comes to my mind is irritability. I've really been suffering but I think this is tied into the jumping to conclusions about things.

I do have an appointment next week.

[NoIdeaWhatToDo]

I don't get delusions (that I know of, ha!) when I'm up, but the irritability has always been there. It took me a long time to realize that was a BP symptom for me when I get hypo.