[Theresa1991]

Well, I think I am really going hypo here. I know I am posting too much, sorry for that, but I feel writing helps. It is going a little out of hands here. I am not drinking or anything but I feel pretty much drunk all the time. Today I had two dates and I am writing with about a million more people. I am physically overactive, moving all the time, dancing, listening to music in an obsessive way. Can't seem to calm myself down. The last days it has been a beautiful way of hypo or getting into hypo, I was more or less calm inside but very active and now it is this strange feeling of impossible to calm down, I feel so agitated and I already did some breathing exercises that couldn't get me down. I would like to go to bed soon as it it 1 am but I don't know how I can manage. Chain smoking. I am probably going to take a benzo to sleep. I just had an experience that has me worried now. Met with one guy and invited him to my place (not living alone, so not risky, even though I met him via Tinder) and I really liked him, awfully attractive and we showed each other our drawings and I had some pretty ****ed up stuff in there and now I really feel embarassed even though he said he liked it and I don't draw too bad but I think he might think I am really nuts now. Anyway I guess that doesn't matter and I am just writing non-important crap.

I will see my pdoc on Thursday and tell him what is happening and I suppose I am safe as long as I stay away from all kinds of substances and sorry for the long post. Any advices for calming down here?

[franz kafka]

Most important is to try to get some sleep tonight. Read a book, lie in bed early. Should prevent things from getting worse.

I post a lot when I'm hypo (like I am now), so don't feel bad. lol

Like franz kafka said, it's important to get good sleep. Usually that helps knock down mania for me fairly quickly.

I also do adult coloring. It lets me put all my focus and energy into doing one thing so that I'm not going out and doing crazy shiit. And if you've never done it before, there are plenty of awesome coloring books out there. For example, I have a "The Walking Dead" coloring book. You can find many, many other pop culture coloring books. It's not as lame as it sounds.

[bizi]

hypo can turn into mania real quickly, be careful and get to sleep. If you can't sleep then call your pdoc for sleep meds.
(((((HUGS))))))
bizi

[Theresa1991]

My PDoc is ill and I am not getting an appointment until January. Yesterday I Kind of freaked out, my "boyfriend" was visiting and we tried to sleep around one because I had to get up at 7:30 and I just lay in bed giggling like crazy and he looked at me as if I was indeed crazy. Still can't hold the laughter. Then I took a Promethazine and fell asleep shortly after 1:30 I guess. I do drawing, but haven't tried the coloring books yet. Good advide, thanks. I also tried to do breathing exercises but I jump up after one Minute and go running through the flat. Anyway I really enjoy this state of mind even though I know I shouldn't and I believe I can feel my motor abilities decrease and my Memory is like a filter, I Need up to three minutes to remember what I did yesterday. Does that happen to you when you are hypo?

[Moose72]

My memory is frequently like that- hypo or not

[Theresa1991]

Do you link that to bipolar? Mine hasn't been before and it gets worse the more agitated I get. My friend even remarked to me that my Spanish was worse than usual, because I was constantly forgetting words and usually I speak like almost native. But anyway so is my German (my first language) and my English. I even Forget what I am wearing.

[Moose72]

That's so neat that you speak so many languages

Originally Posted by Theresa1991

Do you link that to bipolar? Mine hasn't been before and it gets worse the more agitated I get. My friend even remarked to me that my Spanish was worse than usual, because I was constantly forgetting words and usually I speak like almost native. But anyway so is my German (my first language) and my English. I even Forget what I am wearing.

That is indeed impressive!

If writing helps then write away....that's what we are here for. (((Hugs)))

[Theresa1991]

Haha, thank you guys so much! Yes, it does help a lot. The thing with the languages has been my passion ever since. I speak Portuguese and French too, now learning Italian. But it is also because I have lived in Argentina and Brazil for a few months. Well, today I am in the office and my computer doesn't work, so I am just killing time here. I might use it to ask some more questions about hypomania, it is all quite new to me still. Do you get daily changes in your mood being hypomanic? Because for me it is not just going up to the top of the hill and than crashing, but my mood in general is elevated for a few weeks and I am agitated but I have days in between that I feel a little more normal until I go high as a kite again...

[Shazerac]

Originally Posted by Theresa1991

Do you get daily changes in your mood being hypomanic? Because for me it is not just going up to the top of the hill and than crashing, but my mood in general is elevated for a few weeks and I am agitated but I have days in between that I feel a little more normal until I go high as a kite again...

You might be a rapid cycle bipolar. I can go from hypo to depressed several times in the same day. I never know who I'm going to be when I wake up in the morning.

[Theresa1991]

Funny. I just wrote a text with almost that phrase in it: I never know who I am gonna be when I wake up. Anyway, there is Kind of a base line in my moods, which has been rather elevated this year except for about three months being deeply depressed.