[Theresa1991]

I am surely a little hypomanic right now. I enjoy it a lot as long as I can do what I want. But when I have to work, it is hell. The euphoria lasts as long as I can follow my ideas, but when I have to concentrate on something I don't like, I get really irritable, agrressive and anxious. My colleague is ill and coughing really bad all the time and people keep running through the office and I am getting to the point where I want to smash something and can't stop moving and I really get bad headaches like I did every afternoon for the past days and I really want to take some calming meds but they will make me tired and I will concentrate even less. I hate it.

[Shazerac]

Sorry you are going through this. Concentration is a major problem when I'm hypo or in a mixed state. I'm retired now and thank god every day that I don't have to deal with work. I'm worried that if you get too irritable or aggressive that you might jeopardize your job. Only you know how your brain works, but it might be a good idea to take something to calm you down a bit.

This is an apt desription. I will take it further by saying the irritability and aggitation have repeatedly caused me to make rash decisions - like quitting my employment.

This of course (for me anyway) is a precursor to all out mania.

I rely on my supports when I am hypomanic; my support group, family, mental health care team, and a few acquaintances. Talking about what I am experiencing, like the airing of greivances, has been soothing and helpful.

I'm glad you have reached out.

[Theresa1991]

My problem is that noone will really support me so far. I am in the process of diagnosis with a high probability due to my pdoc and psychologist that I have BPII, which also fits my personal impression. I live far away from my familiy though and my friends tell me that I shouldn't go to a doctor because it is just a phase and I don't need meds and I shouldn't make such a big deal of it. I am getting really angry at this point because I am someone who considers things a lot before doing them and I have done ten years of therapy before deciding I wanna be diagnosed and go on meds. It feels like they are not taking me seriously by saying this but obviously I also keep a lot of stuff to myself and don't tell all the world about suicidal thoughts and self-harm when depressed or the risky stuff I do when hypo. This forum is a huge help. About the job - I never did anything like quit, because I know I need the money and I usually force myself through it.

[Shazerac]

Don't listen to your friends about this. They are not medical professionals and have no place at all telling you to not seek help!!! It makes me so angry when I hear people talking that trash. Listen to your heart and your gut. If you think you need help then get it. Take care of yourself. That is the most important thing.

PS: would you listen to your friends if they were telling you to not seek help for a physical medical issue like diabetes for example?

[Theresa1991]

Not at all, and I am not listening to them. On the contrary, I am getting angry with them. I guess they just don't want to listen, because I am talking about problems when mentioning that. I feel neglected. I know they don't want to be mean or anything, but I feel that if they would really know me they would listen. My best friend does. My mom does partly, but I feel it is hard on her because she doesn't want me to be sick and obviously there is a lot that I don't tell her because I don't want her to worry more.