The talk with T/slipping update

So I made it to my apt.There is always lots to talk about being almost a month between visits.
I told him about self destructive stuff,the binge drinking the blades.I also told him about the consistent intrusive sh thoughts.He chalked it up to stress......which I know is my biggest trigger.....hes right.
He didnt seemed too concerned about the depression,he knew I was seeing pdoc tomorrow.
He seemed concerned how I would handle the return to work(as ive been on holidays now 6 weeks).He made sure to make a follow up apt shortly after school resumes.
We also had a big discussion about therapy.....distance and taking time off is a big factor playing in my continuance.
T seemed to understand my delima but for now I will continue to see him....I think hes thinking about other options for me as it seems quitting therapy all together was NOT an option in his opinion.
In the meantime Im ok.....happy no.....but ok.
The talk with T definatly helped put things into a better perspective....I also talked to my husband about stuff.....so he knows we need to keep things pretty balanced at home....
So off to pdoc tomorrow....I guess Ill tell him the same.Getting sick of the weekly bloodwork for lithium levels.Went this am....nothing like a needle in your arm before your first cup of coffee eh?
Im pretty sure my levels from last week will be totally off as the vodka and lithium just didnt stay down!!
Ooooh the crap I get myself into...
Anyways... thanks for the support all!
I'll be around....reading your posts......be good....and Ill try too!

Glad you had an open conversation with T...I go to that class in a few minutes...hope a learn something I can share regarding some of the things you talked about...

Gald to see you let it go today... You get into trouble, I need you to keep me straight, lol........

I'm not going in the hospital, primary is sending me to the Cleveland Clinic to try to get control of the neuropathy pain.. Long trip but I do need help..

Pdoc, long story to much to get into now, another med change, and increase in others. So will see in another 6 weeks if it all starts to kick in. Did talk to him about me and not taking meds correctly, I don't have to tell you what he said about that... hugg.....

So back into survival mode, try once again to see the sky..

t/c

me