Boring the hell out of myself

I'm boring, I hate leaving the house (Scared of driving), have nothing to talk about, Dislike people, do nothing all day at least I'm awake. I don't want to be intimate with my husband. I don't want to be like this. I miss being outgoing of my hypomania. How do I become more outgoing when I hardly answer hi back when people talk to me? I'm contemplating smoking just to see if that helps but I don't want it to switch me into a mood swing or psychosis.

I'm sorry you are feeling like this...that doesn't sound pleasant at all.

This sounds like me when I'm depressed. Is this how you still feel when stable? I don't have the answer to your question.....I seem to either be very up or very down the past few years. I used to have more stability but can't seem to find the balance the past 3 years. I need to seek treatment when I feel as you do. I don't always do so and it lasts sometimes even when I do but at least it's something.

I'm starting to think I am still slightly depressed but have no idea how long it'll last. I don't want to seek treatment when it's so light and may go away any moment.

I hate that feeling. I know exactly what you mean, when you're depressed enough to know it, but not bad enough or motivated to make a med change. Sometimes it works to ride it out, sometimes it doesn't.

I've been feeling this way a lot in the last few weeks. I have to muster up a lot of energy to get myself out of the house. I don't even like going to work most days, but for financial reasons I need to work. People think I'm this happy go lucky person, little do they know the battle I fight within myself on a daily basis.