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Old Nov 22, 2016, 06:47 PM
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I'm home. It's dark. Inside and out. I brushed my teeth after dinner. Time crawls by. Breathing noticeable. Afraid of last time where I couldn't shut it off. Started with cold air activating my asthma today. So much time until bedtime. One kid here one kid not. Strange state. Indefinite. Had music on. Now off. Had a movie on. Now off. I feel stuck in this moment. Will I ever see the sun again? So much to do tomorrow- important stuff. Hit refresh. Hit refresh....
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Old Nov 22, 2016, 07:49 PM
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I can't turn my breathing off. This happened a few years ago- hyper aware of breathing. This started again today with cold air activating my asthma. Help!
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Old Nov 22, 2016, 07:52 PM
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Old Nov 22, 2016, 07:55 PM
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Thanks skeezyks.

Still not yet bedtime. Listening to music.
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Any chance of transferring your attention to somethin else?

Maybe try a different movie or different activities?


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How are you feeling now? Hope you get some sleep and rest and wake feeing better.
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Old Nov 22, 2016, 08:05 PM
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I've got music on. Playing around online. I posted in my blog. I can't go to bed as I took a long nap earlier.
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How are you feeling now? Hope you get some sleep and rest and wake feeing better.
That's exactly what I'm hoping!
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I wish I had a night time prn but all I have is melatonin
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Dear Moose -- what a great topic -- about a terrible time. I'm glad to find this thread. I'm stuck in this moment, too. My day has been in what my partner calls "agitation." Fortunately, we do not live together. We each have our own apartment. I have p.o'd at least 5 people on the phone today, because things that "should" work, don't. People who "should" have kept their appointment with me today, for whom I cancelled things I wanted to do and stayed home all day, did not show up. (See more comments on the “should” issue. Below) I called my therp 2x, crisis line 1 time, did the things they urged me to do....did one -- stopped; did another -- stopped, just like you described. I've just taken 5 mg of Valium. The doc said to take another 5 mg if I don't feel better. I want pie or ice cream real bad. This is not the way I am when the meds work. I've been struggling with med changes for 5 months. Now one med person says maybe it is the med that is causing my mood and behavior. I'm waiting for a doc to call again, then my partner and I are going out for dessert at Denny's, the best ice cream sundaes and cobbler with ice cream. I'm not overweight, but at this point I'm going to be if I can't get control of my craving for sweets. Up till now I have always had excellent discipline with my weight. Three times in my life (the first was in 1963!) I dropped 22 pounds and they stayed off. The third time was 5 years ago. Now I've put on 5 lbs, probably caused by lithium, which I don't take anymore. Overall, my life is good, except for my sprained thumb and that I'll need surgery on one or two organs in a couple of months, plus preparing/tests for that. As for "Should," I have a book called Escaping Emotional Entrapment. I bought a workbook, too. They say, "should" statements and beliefs are not acceptable in our lives. I cannot do anything at all that the workbook says is important to be emotionally healthy and in control of our lives. And that's all hunky-dory that I eliminate "should" from my personal life. But what about when somone makes an appointment me, I stay home all day, they stand me up, and then the office that sent them lies and says they had no record of him showing up? I even have an official document saying he'd be here to inspect my dysfunctional window. The inspector SHOULD have shown up, right? The departments SHOULD have coordinated their appointment schedules, right? They SHOULD not have played mind games and lied to me, right? I am incredibly in terrible condition, and, as you so eloquently said, "stuck in the moment."
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Hi flower bells! Should is an interesting word. So is 've.

I have found that singing has helped! Yippee!
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I'm home. It's dark. Inside and out. I brushed my teeth after dinner. Time crawls by. Breathing noticeable. Afraid of last time where I couldn't shut it off. Started with cold air activating my asthma today. So much time until bedtime. One kid here one kid not. Strange state. Indefinite. Had music on. Now off. Had a movie on. Now off. I feel stuck in this moment. Will I ever see the sun again? So much to do tomorrow- important stuff. Hit refresh. Hit refresh....
Dear Moose -- what a great topic -- about a terrible time. [wrote this yesterday…feeling okay today, so far….] I'm glad to find this thread. I'm stuck in this moment, too. My day has been in what my partner calls "agitation." Fortunately, we do not live together. We each have our own apartment. I have p.o'd at least 5 people on the phone yesterday, because things that "should" work, don't. People who "should" have kept their appointment with me today, for whom I cancelled things I wanted to do and stayed home all day, did not show up. (See more comments on the “should” issue. Below) I called my therp 2x, crisis line 1 time, did the things they urged me to do....did one -- stopped; did another -- stopped, just like you described. I've just taken 5 mg of Valium. The doc said to take another 5 mg if I don't feel better. I want pie or ice cream real bad. This is not the way I am when the meds work. I've been struggling with med changes for 5 months. Now one med person says maybe it is the med that is causing my mood and behavior. I'm waiting for a doc to call again, then my partner and I are going out for dessert at Denny's, the best ice cream sundaes and cobbler with ice cream. I'm not overweight, but at this point I'm going to be if I can't get control of my craving for sweets. Up till now I have always had excellent discipline with my weight. Three times in my life (the first was in 1963!) I dropped 22 pounds and they stayed off. The third time was 5 years ago. Now I've put on 5 lbs, probably caused by lithium, which I don't take anymore. Overall, my life is good, except for my sprained thumb and that I'll need surgery on one or two organs in a couple of months, plus preparing/tests for that. As for "Should," I have a book called Escaping Emotional Entrapment. I bought a workbook, too. They say, "should" statements and beliefs are not acceptable in our lives. I cannot do anything at all that the workbook says is important to be emotionally healthy and in control of our lives. Fortunately today, a great friend of mine suggested I see my therapist weekly, and slowly work on each bit in the workbook and book.
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I'm feeling better today. Not perfect but lots better.
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I'm feeling mostly better today.
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I'm having a rough time too. Feel bored and boring and nothing to do and agitated and unsure. Lots of family and unrest and upheaval and different people wanting different things. My mo is just to glide through but I find myself getting off kilter and upset. Luckily feelings don't last.
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I'm going to write in my blog when I get home
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