[st0psign]

Anyone else ever get these? I haven't had them since I lived at home with my parents when I was a teenager (I was dxed at 14). this isn't a personal revenge as much as it would be to save a friend who dated this fella. the guy is a real piece of work, his most recent good deed was resisting arrest when he had, and got caught with, 8 bags of heroin and a syringe in his rectum. a real winner. and this friend of mine is an addict, who doesn't need people like this in her life anymore. and I know where this guy lives. at the very least I'm thinking of tossing a Molotov cocktail through his window while he's sleeping...

I haven't been doing so hot recently and this is just like icing on the cake, idk how to make these thoughts stop without doing anything about them.

[dillpickle1983]

I have homicidal thoughts whenever I get upset. Its not a regular thing, but it does happen.

[usehername]

Do you have a therapist?

[st0psign]

Yeah I have a T. See him twice a week. But the holiday was terrible for me so I've got lots to talk about on top of this. Like I said... Icing on the cake.

[Wander]

Originally Posted by st0psign

Yeah I have a T. See him twice a week. But the holiday was terrible for me so I've got lots to talk about on top of this. Like I said... Icing on the cake.

I have had homicidal thoughts before and they can be terrifying. What is best to know is that acting out on any of these thoughts will only lead to suffering, your suffering. However, having these thoughts is perfectly normal so you are not some freak for thinking these things. Keep posting here if it helps. We care about you. I am glad you are seeing your T soon. Be totally open and hopefully you can find a way to feel better about this.

[gayleggg]

Tell your T. You must get this out before you act on it. No matter how bad the guy is he can't be worth spending your life in jail for. Help your friend but not that way.

[Victoria'smom]

My t d.oes a quick check of homicidal / suicidal thoughts. T can give you coping mechanism and determine whether the hospital or a Med change needs to happen.

[st0psign]

I just got my Haldol bumped up to 5 mg 2x daily yesterday when I saw my pdoc. we'll see if that helps.

Hope your new Haldol dose works for you

I had to titrate to 300mg of Lamictal before my homicidal thoughts went away, but mine we're pretty bad like yours.

I'd recommend asking about boosting your Lamictal if Haldol doesn't help

[st0psign]

anything north of my 200 mg of lamictal gives me insomnia, I just cant sleep above 200... and Haldol has pulled through for me in the past, hopefully the increased dose can get rid of these thoughts.

[ComfortablyNumb5]

Yes I get like this when mixed. I have a cockatoo and she screams and talks. A few weeks ago I was mixed and very sensitive to sound. She was chirping and I had a strong urge to go out there and hurt her. Luckily I wasn't home alone

[Moose72]

I used to get these a lot when living with my mom and her husband. Got so bad one night I was in the psych ER and I told them what I wanted to do to them and they laughed!

[Faltering]

I get homicidal thoughts when angry. I know I won't act on them, but they're scary to have. I hope your med adjustment helps alleviate the thoughts.

[st0psign]

saw T today, didn't get to this... however I'm not gonna do anything.. I was just really heated last night. god damn facebook, god damn facebook to hell. I swear I was a lot happier before I finally cracked and made myself one... I oughta just delete the damn thing, solve a lot of problems.

[Moose72]

To tell you the truth stop in on PC way more than face crack. So much negativity there.

[Faltering]

Facebook can be so toxic. It makes me feel horrible. It's better to stay away from it if it's bothering you.

[bioChE]

After a seven year hiatus from FB, I broke down and created an account. When I logged in and started to read posts, most of it seemed to be minute drivel. I just don't log in anymore.

[usehername]

I was put on scheduled dose xanax for mine (I know - not standard, I was a mess when I came in). It's relieved it entirely, but five years later, I'm still on 3mg a day. At least the dose hasn't increased...

My daughter currently struggles with HI daily, and has not yet gotten medical attention for it because it's not accessible. Needless to say, the sharps have been locked up (FOR OVER A YEAR NOW. WTF?). I wish I could offer some better ideas to cope, and I wish I'd been able to contribute more initially...

But please know you're not alone. And you can always call crisis centers... though in my experience, they limit your time after a while (which is incredibly unfair, because people who are "overusing" these systems are typically doing so because the system is broken. For example, my state ranks 50th, and people who run it don't understand why we can't get out of the system. DUH. It's ****ing broken. Ok, enough of my soapbox...

I feel for you, trying to deal with this. I hope it gets easier soon.