[Unrigged64072835]

Went to T this morning. Didn't discuss much because not much happened. Left early.

Saw my physical therapist this afternoon. He's stopping the traction to see how my back responds. I was having pain today--I think I was bending over and hurt it again. Now I'll have to wait three weeks until I see him again. I put a heating pad on my back this evening and it helped a bit. More exercises to do as well.

I have nothing tomorrow so I might do some more reading. I'm kind of nervous but otherwise okay.

[Faltering]

I saw my new pdoc today. He was nice and seemed knowledgeable. He said I'm having a mixed episode, which I figured lol. He increased my Tegretol and said I needed to get my blood levels checked. He also ordered a test for B12, folate, and vitamin D.

[fishin fool]

Hi all, I'm alive and kicking like the song says.
See my therapist tomorrow and thats about all I have to report.

[Coconutzo]

Anxiety(or something) is high right now out of nowhere.
I don't know why. I woke up early and was feeling super great. Now my heart is beating a mile a minute. My brain feels dizzy and disoriented. I can't catch my breath or keep my eyes open.

[Diddy232]

Not sure what I am feeling cannot quite pin just one emotion right now.

[Coconutzo]

Correction: the above is only true when sitting still
Time to get things done

[gina_re]

Man this adjustment back to work is...interesting. It sure is a pain to get used to sitting at a desk for hours at a time.

There's a scene in the puppet show Transylvania TV in which one puppet says,

It's painful when mental illness strikes so close.

and another one responds,

Yes... now excuse me while I get farther.

[Unrigged64072835]

Did some reading today. Signed up for an online poetry course. Will see where that goes. I may sign up for classes at the local community college this summer. Depends on the money situation.

Other than that not much. Mood is a little down. Will work on that.

[Nammu]

Feeling more real and less imprisoned since quitting the lamictal

[lola0987]

Getting back on meds after pregnancy. Lol crazy me thought I was cured haha maybe not bipolar. Yep I am. In a manic-y stage which sucks. I learned my lesson. I just want to not be anxious or paranoid. Can't wait till meds kick in.

[lola0987]

Had appt today. Getting back on meds after pregnancy. I feel like a do do lol thought I was cured or not no. Haha guess again. In middle of manic episode. Sucks. So anxious and paranoid. Paranoia is worst part of it.

Tomorrow my pdoc reads my blood serum and prescribes my full lithium dosage. Sweet honey in the rock.

[Moose72]

I'm still lovin this weighted blanket. (Under it right now. ). Need new shoes. Had better deal with that tomorrow. I always fear the price! Tomorrow I start titrating down the zyprexa. Lucky I have 5s left because I was on 15 and need to take 12.5 now. This could take a while.

[LadyShadow]

Today was actually a really good day. I got a good night's rest the night before, applied for a job really close by (that I hope I get), and just overall was in a good place. I haven't felt this good in a long time.

[VerMOZZica]

I just felt like crying earlier and now I`m just waiting for my night time meds to kick in.

[MobiusPsyche]

Insomnia sux. That is all.

[lola0987]

Originally Posted by MobiusPsyche

Insomnia sux. That is all.

Haha I feel ya. Lots of audiobooks for me

[bioChE]

I was doing really well for a while, then yesterday depression hit like a brick. Or like I hit a wall. Doesn't matter.

Just trying to pull through, and hopefully it will pass soon.

[hopeless2015]

Got my latuda prescription straightened out and picked up yesterday afternoon. Back at work today, still feeling depressed but know it will pass with time. Not sure how productive I'll be today but I'm here. Now my next check will have unpaid fmla time....ugggg

[scatterbrained04]

That moment when you screw up and instantly hate yourself and feel like SH...

[Unrigged64072835]

My blood sugar is still a little high so my diabetes meds just got increased. I may need to change some other things around but will find out tomorrow.

Other than that I slept a bit because I didn't sleep well last night. Kept waking up and overheating.

Did two loads of laundry. One more left for tomorrow.

[gina_re]

Went to my support group last night, and a few of us decided to go out to IHOP afterwards. I was hesitant since I still had to get up early for work today, but I had a blast! So I picked up a few energy drinks on my way home for today which definitely came in handy. I was able to make it through the day and be pretty productive. My sis and nephew ended up popping by for a few hours, so hearing a screaming 8 month old wasn't the highlight of my day, but luckily I didn't have anything complicated to work on.

[Wander]

Been doing really well generally. The mild depression after the mania has lifted and my mood is stable...but I am full of rage. Saw my T yesterday and he saw me for an hour and twenty minutes as I was so worked up. My pdoc screwing me over has triggered my PTSD from so many others in my past abusing me and messing with me while 'helping' me. I'm the last few days I just lost it and the anger is immense. Thankfully my T was able to calm me down and give me coping skills.

Next Wed my parents and I are seeing my pdoc so he can explain why he has ditched me over religion and fear of suicide. I think he arranged the meeting to try and cover his arse as he has involved my patients in my treatment before and they are now angry at what he has done to me. I just want to find out who he's referring me to and move on. I am looking forward to seeing a new doctor.

[bizi]

I just found out some fraudulent charges on my charge card. Around $400 worth.
Luckily I caught them with the help of rodney at capital one.
A new card is on the way. It will be here next week.

Some how I was sent a wool dress that I did not order and that is why I called them. IT came from china. I did not order it! So I stuffed it back into my mail box and wrote refused, I did not order this!
Will see if the mail person takes it away tomorrow.
bizi