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lol.

was just trying to reply to 14, now I know why I couldn't do it

hah

been feeling pretty neutral throughout the day

pretty boring day as days go (I didn't even get many positive things done)

but i've felt worse

[Moose72]

Checked my bank balance- higher than I feared! Paid my gas and electric bill. Got coffee. Talked to my sister. Our dad (69) is in the hospital with a broken ankle.

My circumstantial issues are still weighing on me but my family and I are taking it one moment at a time and getting through this tough period.

I gave up artificial sweeteners years ago due to it causing my IBS to flair. My husband bought some orange flavored crystal light single packs that you put in a bottle of water and I took a sip of his and it was so delicious and refreshing that I STUPIDLY decided to have my own. I've been up for hours screaming and crying in the bathroom from the pain and stomach churning. I'm finally starting to feel a bit better but I will never touch artificial sweeteners again. Lesson relearned.

Hind sight is usually 20/20 but living in the moment I'm blind. Just hope I'm making the right decisions for everyone right now.

[CarriB]

I'm at work trying to just get through the day... I keep doing the self talk ("You're going to have a GREAT DAY!") but it'/ only sort of working. I started Latuda last night and hoping it works. Have a dr appointment on Fri and therapy on Saturday.

[Moose72]

Elsa I'm sorry you accidentally drank your enemy. Ouch. I get recurring bad stomach aches so I can empathize

[Nammu]

Back from the ENT clinic
It is cold out there, the wind really hits with a bite
Been getting about 3-4 hours of sleep a night....pretty sure I can hang on till January 6th. Yesterday got a surprise phone call...the clinic which told me that no Pdocs were accepting new patients offered me an appointment because my PCP requested that they see me. But gees 7:45 in the am in the middle of winter!

Originally Posted by Nammu

Back from the ENT clinic
It is cold out there, the wind really hits with a bite
Been getting about 3-4 hours of sleep a night....pretty sure I can hang on till January 6th. Yesterday got a surprise phone call...the clinic which told me that no Pdocs were accepting new patients offered me an appointment because my PCP requested that they see me. But gees 7:45 in the am in the middle of winter!

Brrrrrr! I bet that was a shock to the system. I hope you are warm and toasty now.

[hopeless2015]

Having a pretty good day. I think I'm going good to get some Christmas shopping done after work today. I'd like to get finished up.

[Moose72]

My sister just called. Our dad is in the hospital. He broke his ankle getting out of bed and has pins and screws holding him together. We couldn't find him this morning- now we know why he wasn't answering his phone. He still lives alone and he's in another state. He's 69. He's also an alcoholic.

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

Brrrrrr! I bet that was a shock to the system. I hope you are warm and toasty now.

I'm warmer but not toasty as I'm sitting in front of the sliding doors and my cat has claimed my head for his perch and I can't move.

Originally Posted by Nammu

I'm warmer but not toasty as I'm sitting in front of the sliding doors and my cat has claimed my head for his perch and I can't move.

That is adorable! My little dog has recently taken to sleeping on my shoulder when we go to bed....she started about a month ago...it's so cutesbit I feel stuck because I don't want to move and disturb her.

I'm still crying on and off constantly! But the tears feel cathartic or at minimum needed. Sometimes I cry and there is no release but these tears feel different. I'm getting nostalgic in various ways today. Some are very pleasant and make me cry tears of joy and some are so sad right now and I sob for less pleasant reasons. All to be expected considering the circumstances I feel. I look forward to the tears chilling out though....my eyes are so sore and it makes me so sleepy.

[Coconutzo]

My spinning brain won't let me sleep. I have a lot to do for the next few weeks. Keep. It. Together.

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

I'm still crying on and off constantly! But the tears feel cathartic or at minimum needed. Sometimes I cry and there is no release but these tears feel different. I'm getting nostalgic in various ways today. Some are very pleasant and make me cry tears of joy and some are so sad right now and I sob for less pleasant reasons. All to be expected considering the circumstances I feel. I look forward to the tears chilling out though....my eyes are so sore and it makes me so sleepy.

You have so much going on and to have to deal with the holiday expectations on top of that is hard. I'm glad it feels cathartic.

[Unrigged64072835]

Did two loads of laundry and got my hair done. Not much else happened. First day on the Metformin and results have been somewhat unpleasant. Doc said it may take a couple of weeks until my body is used to it.

[LifeInProgress]

Metformin took me a while to get used to when I started on it. Still have to watch my sugars or else it gets me...

Today was a decent day for me.

[Nammu]

The first few days on metformin I was hot all the time. Then nothing. But he did put me on a low dose.

[Moose72]

I caught up on my sleep with a 2 hour nap today. Took my daughter out for bww . We are home on the couch by the light of the Christmas tree in the quiet. My son has my leftover wings. He's happy.

[Theresa1991]

I worked ten hours in the law firm, then went to see a friend and then went to a crazy tango party that set me off on kind of a bad trip. Now wired but with bad thoughts about lots of stuff, for example that the guy I am dating is leaving home to Mexico in five days and I might never see him again and that the bit of stability I have will break away and about the dream I had tonight about my ex and whatever else, but still so full of energy at one in the morning, anyway driven without direction and impossible to create anything.

[gina_re]

In and out of sleep last night. I finally figured my sleep was related to stress due to the inability to pay my two largest bills, car and mortgage, since I've been out of work on short term disability. Called the lender to my car and felt better based on how the loan works. I get paid next Friday, we'll see how much that is and what I can pay. I've given up on stressing. What good does that do. So hopefully I should sleep tonight. I also didn't nap today, so that should help.
My sister and nephew were over for a few hours today. I was babysitting while she caught up on some work. He was crying so much, he's so spoiled. If mommy isn't holding him, he's not happy. We're trying to get him out of it. But good grief! He's 7 months btw. He's the most adorable baby you'll ever see, but the crying, yikes!

[bizi]

my christmas break will be chaos....not looking forward o this.
sigh
bizi

Yesterday I got a measly 1 hr of sleep, but last night I got 5! Yeah! I have a headache, though.

My stomach was killing me yesterday because of food poisoning or something. (Maybe not? I have very bad IBS-D and a lot of things irritate my insides, so it could be that too.) I ate a bagel this morning, which was the first thing I've eaten In 36 hours.

I am finishing my wrapping Christmas presents tomorrow. I feel excited

[Coconutzo]

I got my first full night of sleep in weeks. Also got the first half of the day off work. That means I'm only working seven hours, but hell, I'll take it.
I'm running through the future in my mind. I know some sort of change is coming, some big life shift. I'm optimistic. This has happened a few times in my life, and I can just feel it in the air. Slow down. Speed up. I hope what's coming is good.