Feeling embarrassed after hypomania or just any elevated mood

I have periods of somewhat elevated moods that, when happening, seem to be baseline to me.

Then when I reach what probably is the true baseline, or, dip a bit into a low mood, I realize that it was not baseline but an elevated mood, and feel embarrassed within myself. I also feel embarrassed that my therapist saw me in that elevated mood without my realizing that it was elevated.

Does it happen to anyone else?

I am now working on showing to myself how productive that slightly elevated mood was; I am working on establishing a regular schedule of eating and sleeping, and have been successful - I cooked a ton and avoided all eating out. I do see how helpful the elevation was to me, but still feel embarrassed. Something in me tells me that an average person does not get such periods, and thus I am not entitled to them. Maybe this feeling of not having an entitlement is due to my now being slightly depressed.

It is so hard to determine what the baseline is!

My personality is pretty hypomanic too. I can see how you couldn't tell baseline from hypomanic.

Yes...this happens when I am manic. I start out as hypomanic and then, after days of no sleep (that I attribute mostly to coincidence initAlly) I realize I have been doing and saying some very bizarre things. My therapist realizes I am unwell before I do and she will say something and I will brush it off generally. I will send her bizarre emails that I will think are normal and she will refrain from reading them knowing from the beginning I am manic (thank God)!!! Anyway, it sucks that I have to act like a total idiot before losing my mind while manic. Then I go from behaving bizarrely to complete insanity when I become a danger to myself and am beyond humiliating. I hate it!