3 (three) TO-DO's (no more for a day)

my 3 for today are:

take a shower (probably this afternoon)

email tara and find out what she's doing the weekend/ why she wasn't around yesterday

trivia challenge

This is great. I've been managing a list of like 12 or 13 things and I never get them done, I get too tired so I just transfer the undone items to the next day. But 3 is manageable. I would feel like I accomplished something. But I might want to do more. It's all a matter of energy and every day I feel different. It might be a 3 day list or a 15 day list or a 0 day list. That's because I'm a rapid cycler. I never know how I'm going to feel from one hour to the next. I can do a speed run and blast through a bunch of things or I can sit in the chair all day-I just never know. That's why I have a hard time working a steady job. Baby, Zijax don't rock steady! But the idea gives me a stable feeling. Structure in a day is good because I don't work a regular job.

Get out of the bed-done
Shower-done
Make it through a full day at work-two hours in so far

leftover from yesterday DONE
- go to the pharmacy to pick up Zonegran for migraine prevention; buy chocolate cherry Greek yogurt while there

TODAY:

- IOP therapy session DONE
- go to TORRID, a plus size women's clothing store, to pick up my online order and also just look around
- cook and eat dinner DONE

Well today(Saturday) has been a success in getting things done but I am VERY anxious and panicked and agitated. Only 3.45pm now but I think I am going to check out for the rest of the day and just rest and chill doing various things.

Sunday's things to do:

- Somehow make it to work with high anxiety (I expect it will still be there).
- Work for 6 hours without freaking out or going home.
- Try to wind down after work and get some sleep.

TODAY:

- swimming pool
- psychiatrist
- hair dresser

TODAY:

- swimming pool NOT DONE, but... cooked dinner (also a good thing)
- psychiatrist DONE
- hair dresser DONE

TOMORROW:

- Skype with family and friends (I appreciate having them)
- yoga
- laundry

get my songs played on the radio (like I do every sunday)

cook a roast (yet still not decided on what meat i'm having)

start my new dvd

Skype: partly done (I talked with my dad and my aunt, but not with my uncle or my friends)

Laundry: done

Yoga: did not go because my laundry with the yoga pants had not finished on time. I bought several pairs of leggings to avoid having this problem in the future.

TOMORROW:

- appointment at 10AM
- cook borscht in the evening
- write a long letter I have been meaning to write for a while by now

- Guided CBT Journal work
- painting/doodling for art journal
- nutritious meal

Did the appointment. Morning appointments are stressful for me, but I left the house on time, washed and dressed, and found my way.

I did cook.

I did not even begin writing the letter.

TODAY:

- 7:15 appointment regarding my leftover acne from Lithium. Leave the apartment at 6:30. Eat at 6.

- work meeting at 1 (have to figure out in which building it is)

- in the evening, fry dover sole fish fillets for dinner and boil potatoes

- Rested from being sick
-Made dr. appointment for this afternoon
-Forced myself to eat a little bit
-Figured out just how low I can sing on the piano (from being sick) lol I will tell my youngest son when he gets home.

Did the 7:15 appt. Did the work meeting, which went well. Had to throw the sole in the garbage because I was not sure about it. Lessons learned: either fry all the sole at once and store the leftovers, or do not buy the sole because Trader Joe's sells a huge quantity.

Today:

- 1:30 appt. DONE, went well.
- leave voicemails DONE
- continue writing a long letter ABOUT TO BEGIN

Today I kicked arse on my to-do list. rested, played guitar for 2 hours, worked, ate well and helped a friend in distress.

Tomorrow:

1) help my sister unpack in her new home and play with my nephews and nieces in the process.

2) Play guitar for 2 hours

3) Shop for and hopefully buy a new amp for my guitar

Then rest for the night hopefully.

I sent the first installment of my long letter. Sending it was one of my TODO's for today. The two others are:

graduation and an appt at the IOP: DONE

deposit the checks and drop off a rental clothing item

Bought a new amplifier for my guitars and vocals; Fender 65 Deluxe Reverb...so today I am going to;

1) play guitar and sing
2) play guitar and sing
3) play guitar and sing

I wish I could do 1, or 2, or 3!

Mine:

- learn the basics of the camera DONE
- learn to upload the pics onto the PC - WIP
- yoga - DONE

That's great. What camera do you have?

SONY A5000

It is a b-day gift from my dad.

TOMORROW:

- I did not finish with the upload, so that is one
- send a mailing
- see a dermatologist about my rash

I am not familiar with that one. Is it an SLR? I have a Nikon D7000 which I bought nearly 4 years ago. Great camera but I haven't used it for over six months. I was studying photography at uni but switched to writing for various reasons. I miss it and need to get back into it. You have inspired me

As well as playing guitar and singing today I decided to go for a long snorkel and get some exercise. Now, back to my guitar.

I do not know what an SLR means!

I got derailed by an episode of hypomania and lack of sleep (despite mega doses of sleep medicines). Luckily I figured out that it was induced by Zonisamide, a migraine prevention neurological drug I was taking. So I did not fill out the goals for a few days. The hypomania bordered on mania and my brain was literally on fire with horrible thoughts. I was all revved up. I went to work, but apparently dissociated or couldn't concentrate as I cannot recall the contents of a meeting I attended yesterday.

Anyway, back to the task:

- survive the workday (1.5 hours to go)
- write an incident report (DONE)
- eat two bowls of soup for dinner

I was hypomanic and am getting back on track.

Today:

- swimming DONE
- deposit a check DONE
- write a letter

today:

- write a letter (DONE)
- download pictures from a card in my camera (I am not tech savvy and it is hard for me)
- read from the book on Interpersonal Relationships and Social Rhythms therapy