[dshantel]

April is fast approaching and it's causing me so much anxiety. I hate the way I feel and I don't know what to do. My husband is going to Romania for a month. I'm dreading it so much. So I'll be here alone with the kids and I don't know anyone here at all where we live. Also if you don't know from previous posts I don't drive due to anxiety. I've been dreading this since like January. I wish I could just escape. I honestly can't even explain this is making me feel but I just need someone to talk to as my husband doesn't understand at all. I would definitely go stay with his family if my son wasn't in school. They are like 4hrs away. I've also been feeling a little depressed which doesn't help either. It's already been hard to get out of bed to take to my son to the bus stop, several times I have thought about taking him out of school though I do realize that is a terrible idea and I hope and don't think I'd actually do it. I just feel like I'm going into another cycle (episode) because of all this. All I can think about is how much I don't want to be here alone, this Anxiety is making me irritable and shop crazy. I just want​ to crawl out of my skin.

[Wander]

No wonder you are anxious. That will be really tough without your husband and not being able to drive. Are the school and shops close by? What is your plan on managing the month. Maybe if you have a firm plan in place the anxiety will calm down a bit. From what I recall you are without a therapist or psychiatrist? It sounds like you need some extra support to get you through this. Is is possible at all to see a T at least? Someone to help you with coping skills etc. You are welcome to post on here if that helps but I think professional support would be the most beneficial.

It must be so tough being alone and away from your family. Do you video chat to them much? It might help bridge the gap for you. Hang in there. You will get through this.

[dshantel]

Originally Posted by Wander

No wonder you are anxious. That will be really tough without your husband and not being able to drive. Are the school and shops close by? What is your plan on managing the month. Maybe if you have a firm plan in place the anxiety will calm down a bit. From what I recall you are without a therapist or psychiatrist? It sounds like you need some extra support to get you through this. Is is possible at all to see a T at least? Someone to help you with coping skills etc. You are welcome to post on here if that helps but I think professional support would be the most beneficial.

It must be so tough being alone and away from your family. Do you video chat to them much? It might help bridge the gap for you. Hang in there. You will get through this.

Thanks for commenting. I can't afford a therapist and my insurance doesn't cover it. I video chat with my sister in law often and talk to my sister in Snapchat but I'm not that close with anyone else really. My son rides the bus to school but I absolutely dread getting up at 6 am to go stand in the cold for 30 minutes. There isn't anything walking distance to me, I would just take an Uber but I doubt I'll go out with all the kids by myself in an Uber because the carseats. If I had friends to come visit me maybe it wouldn't be so bad but I don't really have friends and I def don't know anyone here.

I am so sorry for all the stress on your horizon (((hugs)))

Do you have any pets or can you possibly get one? My dogs help me feel safe sometimes when I'm forced to be alone. I also keep knives nearby but perhaps that is not smart....I don't know but it's been helpful.

What exactly are your fears? Maybe talking about exactly what you are afraid of will help? (((Hugs)))

[Victoria'smom]

I freak out when my husband is gone for a week-end I can't imagine a whole month. Do you have Schwan's or something so you can get groceries? Can you get an online Therapist?

[dshantel]

I do not have any pets and I don't really know the exact fears. I guess I just can't handle it, idk.

Yes here is a service here that I've used before that delivers groceries. It's called shipt. I use it when I don't want to have the kids at the store.