This sucks

I was told today that I am not being renewed for next school year. So really I've been fired.

They told me that I'm not a good fit for the district, that they expected someone with my experience to have better classroom management skills. I've been struggling with my class all year long so I can't blame them for letting me go. I did terrible. I tried my best but it wasn't good enough.

They did say they would give me a good reference. But I'm feeling pretty defeated. I just don't know how to be a better classroom manager. I'm terrible at it. And it really really sucks because I love teaching. But teaching doesn't love me. I guess I'm just not good at it. I kept my job at the private school for four years and they renewed me for a fifth but they had lower standards. I guess I just can't hack it in public school.

I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm not worried about money that much because I live with my mom so I don't pay rent. I just don't know where to go from here. Do I pursue teaching with the hopes that I'll get better at it? Or do I throw in the towel? I could be an aide instead. I'll never be able to live on my own on an aide's salary though.

I'm pursuing my master's in education but now I don't know if it's even worth it because I don't know if teaching is something I'm even capable of. I mean clearly it's not if I can't keep a job past a year.

I have a summer job at the special services district near my house. I'm considering asking if there are any open positions for an aide in the fall. There's also a teaching position for the special services district in the next county. I LOVED working with those kids last summer, but I was just an aide.

I don't know. I feel like no one will hire me now. My union rep told me to write a letter of resignation, that way I could say I resigned instead of being let go. I don't know.

It just sucks. I've never been fired before.

Ugh. I won't let this beat me. I'm not going to tailspin into an episode. It just won't happen.

I could just use some hugs.

Although I live in the UK, I know many teachers who have used their skills in other sectors and are much happier, as well as less stressed and better paid. Education is a very transferable skill and is in huge demand, at least where I live. PM me if you'd like some pointers, but I do appreciate they might not apply to the US (but I wanted to try, as well as send you some support from England!)

I'm so sorry. I do t know if this'll help, but maybe it's just a learning experience. You say you are going for your masters so you must enjoy teaching. And maybe stick to it. Just another obstacle to over come. I hope this was helpful. Again I'm so sorry.

I'd hug you in real life.

And then we could get food and then walk where ever the breeze takes us!

I'm sorry. I think you should write the resignation and don't give up yet. If another job doesn't work out then maybe it is time to try to do something else, but first be sure it wasn't the district.

You'll find something. My mom is an education professor and has had students who came through with mental illnesses. Sometimes teaching didn't work out but eventually something else did.

I'm sorry this is happening to you. I know just how it feels.

The letter of resignation is what most people do in order to have a better shot at getting hired in another district. You're lucky in that they told you the real reason behind the decision. That makes it possible to focus on and consider improvement. I was never given a real reason, and when my students liked me and I felt I was doing a good job, that makes things very murky. Maybe they saw the bipolar in me.

Anyhow, you can pull through this. You're welcome to write me via PM to discuss classroom experiences and job trajectories.

Don't give up! Stay strong! You can do it!

I really hate what happen. You've posted before how you love teaching. Write the letter and then focus on adding to your teaching style going forward. I don't think you should give up on something your passionate about.

A mentor would probably help. Someone who's been teaching for quite some time.

don t give up wildflower
you are such a strong person
your dream job and perfect fit may be just around the corner with the higher education
when I got fired from my nursing job of ten years after repeated hospitilizations I almost gave up and unfortunately did end up in an episode. I was on unemployment for a while and didn't think I could go back and I lost all confidence. but I finally got back out there and I'm so so glad I did.
sending hugs and hope that you keep your head up!

Thanks everyone! I'm not giving up. I think I would just do better in a special services district. Even if I have to work one or two years as an aide. I dunno. I hope I can be a teacher again but if is what it is. I know I can be better if I try.

Feeling very down today, I guess that's to be expected. Trying to distract myself. Not sure how to do that though. It's times like these that I wish I had more friends. Both my sisters in law are busy.

I'm very upset about losing my health insurance. My insurance was awesome. NOw I'm back to ****. I can get insurance through the ACA for now, until trump guts it. It's expensive though. And I have to do a lot of research about whether my meds will be covered. I can switch to a cheaper AP if needed but I can't switch ADs. Emsam is the only thing that works for me. My only option would be switching to a cheaper maoi. I dunno what that would be though.

Ugh this really sucks.

I'm so Sorry! Sending great big hugs!! I also think you should write the resignation letter and go from there. I know your feeling overwhelmed but hang in there. Better things will come your way, I'm sure of it.

I'm so sorry for you lady. With all you have been through, I know this is a tough break! I hope you will find some relief to this disappointment! Don't give up on what you live!

I'm sorry I've never been fired (haven't really had a job I could get fired from yet) but I've recently experienced rejection myself and it sux so bad!! Especially when I feel like I basically only love and am sort of good at one thing in life...

I don't think this is any reason at all for you to give up though. The world needs teachers like you - teachers who actually give a **** about being good at their job. And it's something you will only get better and better at. I mean, remember the movie "Dangerous Minds" (just joking).

Please don't quit your studies! I obviously don't know you personally but my sense of you from this forum is that teaching is your love and you need it. Maybe you could seek out some workshops that focus on classroom management, or ask to sit in on some classes (?) Or maybe you could work at some after school programs or as a tutor? Eventually this will just be a little bump in the road.

Sorry to hear this happened to you. Big hugs.