[Mr. Radio]

It has been a pro-dominate thought of my mind that after I have suffered from psychosis that my socialization skills have been decreased. I have fought hard to change the thought by producing radio shows which are pure talk oriented. No matter how many episodes I produce or the amount of people I ask (if I talk normal), I still feel the same. Still feel disabled when it comes to communication with people. The lack of words and lack of conversation has effected my self esteem and has limited my social involvement for my 25 year old self. It's a personal battle and one that I still haven't reached a conclusion about.

What I feel is that I am different then the prior self and I can accept that. Maybe what I've lost is my social confidence and the ability to just flow freely.

In my experience mania is marked by hyper socialization.

Is it possible that what you are feeling is a crash from going from extreme socialization to the opposite? COuld it be that you are feeling a craving for socialization and that, by it not happening to the extreme as it was that you are feeling something is missing?

Also, when we are manic we are extremely charismatic and people gravitate towards us making it very easy to socialize, meet new people, and broaden our circles of aquaintances. Perhaps too then, as this is not happening as easily as it was that you are feeling down.

[DysphoricManicMom]

I have had psychotic delusions which have left me feeling disconnected from people, makes me feel like I cant relate enough to most people in order to make coversation. I am an introvert by default, but it seems like I just completely shut down have nothing to say to anybody. Its not always related to the depression end of things either.

[unaluna]

Thats output - what are you doing to increase input? How are you learning about new (and old) things? Like art, history, geography, music?

I get it. I definitely felt that way after my psychotic break and subsequent depression. Some of it was med induced I think; I was on risperdal which made it hard for me to experience any emotion, good or bad. Also, I've heard that having a manic break is like having a concussion, it takes a while for things to get back to normal. Keep trying and talk to your pdoc about your symptoms. I still feel that the experience changed me, but I don't think people can tell from the outside. While I'm different I have a greater acceptance of my illness and am back to being relatively comfortable socializing (I'm naturally introverted so I never liked it much in the first place).

[Christopher1990]

yeah man.. I understand what your saying. I do alot of listening. it's hard for me to start and keep conversation. I just think. and think and think. if only i talk as fluently as I think

[Mr. Radio]

I like what was said in regards to the manic phase of socialization in comparison to to drop off of coming off that high. I think that my socialization was only effected by my own mind telling me that I had lost some sort of functioning in that area. The meds have just been reduced will see if that makes me any quicker, but overall I done concerning myself with this. I will talk when I feel it's necessary and not try to hard, but just convincing myself that I am normal and haven't lost anything. That's a huge mental block to get over. I guess I just have to build up my confidence again in social situations and do the best I can do.

Asked the doctor yesterday if it was a thing that happens to people after psychosis and he said "no." I am completely normal other than having bipolar and need to focus on getting my life back on track. Thanks for all the input it defiantly helped and now to continue my journey of recovery from this mess I fell into. Hope everyone is doing well.

[srinivas11]

In my experience my life leads to a great point that I am left to choose of becoming a sanyasi or a boring engineer...... Coz I experienced real enlightenment during psychosis it was actual ego death of self harmony and self loving experience that's like heaven on earth I have seen the other world outside.....

[ibrahimsamirk]

Originally Posted by jupiter3

I get it. I definitely felt that way after my psychotic break and subsequent depression. Some of it was med induced I think; I was on risperdal which made it hard for me to experience any emotion, good or bad. Also, I've heard that having a manic break is like having a concussion, it takes a while for things to get back to normal. Keep trying and talk to your pdoc about your symptoms. I still feel that the experience changed me, but I don't think people can tell from the outside. While I'm different I have a greater acceptance of my illness and am back to being relatively comfortable socializing (I'm naturally introverted so I never liked it much in the first place).

Can i ask you some questions because i had psychosis 5 months ago, and i was really wondering if i'll be social again. I'm pretty quiet most of the time and i got nothing to say to people.
Can you really get better from that point? what have you been diagnosed with? do you think i can be ok again?

[HarryKovert]

I've had 5 psychotic episodes in the last 18 years. The last one in October of last year.

Depression has always followed the highs and I've always found it difficult to the point of impossible in talking with people and socialising whilst depressed.

All I can say, based on my experience is that the low mood always lifts and when it does the conversation, fluent thinking and socialising quickly follow.

Stay strong and have faith.