Are You High, Low or in the Middle?

Wow, I forgot about this thread! My report is pretty boring; I'm stable, have been for the past couple of months. That's the longest period of stability I ever remember having except during pregnancy when I was stable for pretty much the entire first 8 months.

High, I just want to ****ing sleep though because the lack of sleep is making my anxiety and paranoia bad

I’m in the middle but low. Like on the edge of the bar. Any lower and I’d slip into the depression box.

Dancing in the lows, whilst asking for help and degreasing the rungs on the ladder as I do, so my oversize shoes will fit. I can tell you; it's quite a balancing act. Especially as I am manoeuvring events so as to avoid the clown who wants his balance beam and red shoes back. If I can get to elephant, I can make a slow getaway. Besides, there's no chance he will catch me whilst wearing bare feet. And let's not even start on the bear!

Theres enough analogies and grammatical latitude strung together above to keep an English professor's red pen going for at least an hour!!!

Honestly, emotions kind of feel like they are in a blender. One that's switched on a high setting with the lid off.

I HAD A GOOD DAY AT WORK TODAY HALLELUJAH

I Never thought I’d use the words work and good in the same sentence but I am.

Please pray for me that tomorrow is just as good!

I’m not high I’m stable.

I've been crying a lot about situations out of my control, but when I don't think of those situations I'm pretty happy I think. Just stressed. Been sleeping decently for a change. I'd say happy, yet teary stable. 😊 😭

Hanging in the middle but then got sent down low because someone ignored me, and I don't know what I did. Thinking it was back during that manic episode. It sucks.

Today I am hanging out in the middle, feeling okay. Kinda bummed that I slept so late again today, but I will do better tomorrow.

Today I am hanging out in the middle. Fearful of losing my apartment and moving to Florida.

Mixed for weeks now!

Stable in the middle

Moved on to mania mixed with akathisia.

Painfully low of the agitated variety.

Hanging out in the middle. Kind of don't know what to or how to feel. I am stable, but just very regretful and sad.

I am mixed! Lots of energy but can’t focus to do anything. I’m like a car getting its engine revved with its brakes on!

Heading towards the "low" side. No email has come in and I am drowning. I wait all day for an email. My life is so pointless. I wish I had a purpose.

Flying a little high. Feeling energized and manic for some reason. Need to get to bed because I need to work tomorrow.

Flying a bit high again. Need to get to bed. Have a lot planned tomorrow.

Well despite the new klonopin script knocking me out last night it’s 4 am and I’m up wide awake! Ugh.

Edit: now it’s 5:20 and I just discovered my Pdoc gave me 1 mg klonopin twice a day instead of just at bed like I thought. I ordered decaf coffee- don’t want to mix the two! I’ve done that before and it’s NOT a good feeling! Used one of two $5 Dunkin gift cards that someone working here gave me yesterday!

So I’d say I’m up but back down. Mixed up. Gonna stay here until the klonopin tones down a bit.

Hanging out in the middle with a little bit of a (high) - excited for my group study tonight and got two emails from the ex today. It's been a pretty good day.

Hanging out in the middle trying to stay out of a low. It's hard missing someone so much. I wish things were different.

Still plodding along in the middle .....

Hanging out in the middle but kind of high. Had an amazing experience in church that has me feeling so in tune with things. Found out something I thought was going to be a problem didn't turn out so bad.

Solid middle

Sleep is hard but mood remains in the boring middle.

In the middle thankfully. I thank my stability.