[cashart10]

Yes, I know it is sometimes necessary but wow do I hate it! I hate everything about it but perhaps most of all is they jack up your meds, sometimes fill you with haldol, yay, and then you and pdoc have to start again.

My husband says he thinks she may admit me after Thurs, even wanting me to call today but I'm over it. Ugh! She hates it too, thank God and will only admit me if she thinks it's totally necessary. Anyone else?

[BeyondtheRainbow]

That's how I used to feel but then I went somewhere that I had a good experience and now I'm fine with it. I know my pdoc won't make me go unless it is really needed and I know that if I go it won't be so bad and so I have come to think of it as a safe place that's there when needed and I don't have to worry about it when it is not.

Mood disorder units can really make it better if you have that available. Like everything psychiatric I travel for it but it's worth it.

I hope you don't have to go but also hope that someone is able to get you feeling better soon. You've put up a hard fight for weeks and you may need to just rest.

[vjdragonfly]

IP is not something I look forward to, but I will go if needed. Sometimes it is nice because I get to get away from all my triggers and I am able to focus on myself.

[Ripose]

I despise hospitals even the regular wards. The last time I was there it got so bad that 1 day I just left, without telling anyone. All those places do is add a little to my PTSD each time I am there.
I am to the point now where I would rather suffer at home than be treated in a hospital.
I am dreading the time I will be there to get my hip replaced in July, they always screw with my psych meds no matter why I am there.

THEY SUCK!

[Victoria'smom]

It's not fun being so sick you need the hospital but sometimes it is necessary.

My experiences with the hospital have been rather terrible. I don't like it and don't care for being around erratic people, even if I myself am classified as erratic. It's very traumatic for me and is only a safe option if I have no other reasonable ones because I leave with further trauma which is counterintuitive. ((((Cash)))

[Unrigged64072835]

Most of the time it's boring. I try to read and not listen to my roommate snoring. (Or eating crackers at 3 AM)

If I have to go, I'll go. Otherwise I'll tough it out.

Hope you feel better soon, Cashart.

[Wander]

Sending big hugs Cash! Let us know what happens. I want only the best for you and if it is hospital then it is worth a try. Do you know what the hospital is like? Have you been there before? Take care and stay safe.

[franz kafka]

I hate hospital when I'm there and will do anything to get out. But in hindsight I really needed the intervention and it helped me a lot. Probably saved my life a few times. I think that makes it worth it.

I hope you get the help you need, whatever that may be.

I agree with Wander. I don't want to go to a hospital but I will if it's the safest place for me. It's tough to decide to go but it's better then being forced to go. If you need it to be safe, please decide to go.

[cashart10]

Originally Posted by Wander

Sending big hugs Cash! Let us know what happens. I want only the best for you and if it is hospital then it is worth a try. Do you know what the hospital is like? Have you been there before? Take care and stay safe.

I'm SO jealous of your IP. Here, it's no tv in your room. No cell phones, No radios, pictures. No visits from kiddos, white walls, white sheets...no leaving, everything you see in horrible movies. The last time I went, I was in a state hospital so there wasn't even therapy. And, everyone there was so sick, there was no point. I HATE it.

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

I agree with Wander. I don't want to go to a hospital but I will if it's the safest place for me. It's tough to decide to go but it's better then being forced to go. If you need it to be safe, please decide to go.

Thank you! And, I would only go if absolutely necessary which my pdoc has good judgement and listens to me as well.

So...I'll leave you with one of my favorites...

Me and Bobby McGee, Janis Joplin

[Sunflower123]

I dislike it so much that even last night when I should have driven straight there I didn't. They have an intake coordinator 24/7 and I could have just driven up and checked myself in. The hospital is about 3 miles from my house and is strictly behavioral health. It's very nice and the times I went I got much better.

Having said that....I still dislike it so much that I avoid it at all costs so I truly understand how you feel. You've been having a really tough time lately though and if that's what it takes to get some relief, maybe it's a good thing. I hope you start feeling better soon. Best wishes....

[cashart10]

I'm so sorry for you Jennifer.

I see pdoc today. I feel really ****ing good but stuck in my head which is perpetually a bad place. She has a form for everyone to fill out in the waiting room about your mood. What do I even circle for my mood...inane perhaps?!!!

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by cashart10

I'm so sorry for you Jennifer.

I see pdoc today. I feel really ****ing good but stuck in my head which is perpetually a bad place. She has a form for everyone to fill out in the waiting room about your mood. What do I even circle for my mood...inane perhaps?!!!

Thank you. I'm glad you're seeing your pdoc today. I hope you get some relief. My pdoc has a form as well rating your mood on a scale of 1-10, list medications etc. The last question on the form is are you suicidal/homicidal right now. I know it's a necessary question but it always makes me smile.