Do you question your diagnosis?

Stable on meds, I almost feel like I was faking before; but if that were true, for most of my life I faked in a way that I was my only audience; and magically lost interest once I started taking these pills that are making me a bit rounder.

So in the end, I logically conclude, the diag is accurate and useful. Heck, if its enough to keep a doc from giving me prednisone, its proved its usefulness to me. (I hallucinate, not very fun).

Yes. I've gone to four different psychiatrists hoping for a different answer. They all said the same thing.

Just did the "are you bipolar test" on PC and my numbers say BP 1. Is that possible without psychosis? I get more and more confused hence I continually question

Nope I am for sure bipolar 1

Most people with BP1 have some psychosis during mania, but not everyone. Also I wouldn't rely on a quiz for diagnosis. If you aren't sure what bipolar type you're diagnosed with, better to ask your doctor.

For sure. Family doctor said BP and my assumption is 2. Brief initial consult I had Tues with pdoc said BP but he didn't specify (wasn't happy with him for other reasons). Seeing fam doc again tomorrow and hopefully get new referral.

All the time.... when I am stable I wonder what all the fuss is about.... I mean if I am this good then why do I take the meds and why do I feel soooo good. But then I do something stupid and then I go there is my answer. But I mostly sit at hypo-mania most of the time so I see the bright-side to life. I don't really get depressed anymore the meds seem to dissolve that side to the Bipolar. I have wondered if I had Borderline Personality Disorder but I think its always been Bipolar. Then when I have stopped my meds I am like woohoo I can do this I am fine now a-days. I have kinda stopped my meds now and no-one has noticed wonder how long I can last without it being noticeable. I mean I am meant to still be taking them but you know how it is

Responding to the OP's question if you ever question your diagnosis, yes, I do. (Bipolar Type 1.) I think about it regularly. I was diagnosed in the mid-90s and have seen many different doctors over the years. None have ever come to a different diagnosis, at least that they have told me about. Yet sometimes I think my depression is situational, like if I changed my life in some ways, it would cure things. (But it's easier said than done.) And as for mania and hypomania, is it really a brain disorder or do I just get really excited about life for periods of time? Does healthy eating and exercise, when I get all that together, just make me happier and give me tons of energy? I don't know. I do clearly have mood problems, but sometimes I wonder if the whole concept of "bipolar" is really an accurate description of what is going on.

What do you usually take Laura?
I constantly think "I'm not that bad, how could I possibly warrant using such potent drugs!?" CONSTANTLY QUESTION DX UGH

I only take Depakote and Aririprazole but also Quetiapine as a PRN

I'm so nervous to see my fam doc next week. Hes been so good but I haven't stuck with anything hes prescribed me. Afraid hes going to see me as a bad patient as I'm so non compliant---denial screams at me constantly. I'm not bipolar, how could I possibly be BP. Those bad times cant possibly be as bad as I thought they were at the time. And the hypo was just a really happy mood and who doesn't have that sometimes. I'm such an idiot

I'm both BPD and Bp. The BPD is far worse and is incurable except through DBT which they don't have in the small town I live in. I wonder if I even have Bp but I definitely know I'm borderline...I fit into every category. Sorry to sound negative but this Bpd is wrecking my latest relationship and my impulsivity is through the roof.