Not Doing So Great After All

This morning, I just burst into tears, and the little stuff is really getting to me. My pdoc and I decided a few weeks ago to try lowering my Seroquel, since I got tired of the way it was making me feel at night. At first, I was feeling noticeably on edge, getting into constant arguments with family and even with one friend of mine...although she said some things to trigger that.

(*****Possible trigger) I started experiencing some SI today after crying a lot. I know my moods fluctuate, but I'm so sick of this. At first with the lower Seroquel, I was feeling better as far as reducing side effects. If I am off Seroquel, I can't sleep at all. Do you think the fact my Seroquel was lowered from 400 to 300 could cause this kind of emotional reaction? I didn't think it would feel like such an extreme difference.

I am so much more irritable, angry, sad, and especially feeling low about myself. Part of my self-esteem issue right now is on top of my mental health problems, I got a skin infection (molluscum) and later found out that it is possible I passed it along to someone since it turns out it is contagious (at first I was falsely diagnosed with folliculitis). I am guessing maybe there is a build up between self-esteem issues plus the med change causing everything.....it is hard to tell. Do you think it is worth getting an earlier pdoc appointment to think about upping my Seroquel again? I'm scared to do so though.

I wish I could be of more help. The only thing I can say is whenever I lower my AP my moods take a nose dive. I choose to stay on the right AP dose and just deal with the side effects. YMMV

I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time.

It sounds like maybe the reduced Seroquel dosage may be responsible (at least partially so) for the letdown in mood.

I am sorry about the skin infection. I am sure you would have not risked possibly infecting anyone else if you'd known it was contagious.
Things like this also get me down. I'm tired of physical problems. It wears on my self-esteem, too, even temporary things.

It seems like you've been through a lot lately.
Maybe an earlier appt with the pdoc would feel helpful?
Please take good care of yourself and stay safe.


WC

Give yourself time to level out on the new dose. At least a month.

I have rosacea and my dermatologist thinks it might be an increase in demodex mites. Treatment has been horrible because my skin is also sensitive to the creams I get for treating it. She's put me on a pill regime to fight it that way. Thankfully it's not contagious (though everybody has demodex, it's just the amount of them).

I'd talk to your pdoc soon, though, before you fall down the rabbit hole any further.

Could you get an earlier appointment with your pdoc to go over this?

Thank you everyone. I just took a Klonopin to try to take the edge off of these moods. Maybe I should rely a little more on that.

The skin thing...at first when the dermatologist was debating what it was, I told my partner after that maybe we should wait, in case it was contagious....but he said he'd risk it. Things happened fast, but I kept warning him about it. I even warned him before I came over his house and said we can just hang out without any physical contact. After all, we have the type of relationship where it's not just about hooking up.

He made a move on me any way knowingly and willingly (I know TMI) and was pretty insistent. Now, I feel awful and guilty though, even though I tried to warn him that they are going to determine whether it is viral and that they started to suspect it was. I should have refused to participate in anything with him. It all happened so fast. So this further contributes to these horrible feelings. I don't want him to abandon me, although he said he'd risk it. I am so ashamed and did not mean this to happen. Sorry this is long. I had to get this out.

Even before all that, I was feeling extremely moody with some serious swings. So I can't blame all of it on the infection. It might be the Seroquel after all, and maybe I have no choice but to up the dose. I have a 90 day supply of the higher dose, so I wonder if I get permission to take those, if that would make a difference. Maybe I'll just call my pdoc.

Sorry your not doing so great. I hope you can get in contact with your pdoc and sort this out soon

Sorry you're struggling. I think calling your pdoc is a great idea. Be kind to yourself and take care.

Thank you all. Just trying to keep my head above water and hoping tomorrow will be an easier day, but it's been really hard in general. My pdoc is back in the office Wednesday. The Klonopin I took earlier helped. Maybe I need to take that a little more until I can talk to her on Wednesday.