[Tkb1966]

I have an appt next week to see a new pdoc. I have no idea what to say. I feel "nothing". Just blank. Years of being depressed and anxious etc. I guess I've already given up so what am I suppose to say to her? I'm tired of taking meds and especially the trial and error. But I'm afraid she's going to see that meds haven't really done anything for me and recommend ECT. My old pdoc was going to refer me to her years ago because she does ECT but I didn't want to go that route. Now I just happen to be going to her because she's the only one I can find who accepts my ins.
I had been looking forward to this appt because I need relief from depression and anxiety. But it just seems like this is what my life is always going to be and trying new meds is just going to make it worse.
Have you been like me and just don't know what to say to a new pdoc because you just feel lost, blank and though of course you haven't tried EVERYTHING you feel like you have?

[Sunflower123]

I'm sure I've felt that way when I've been really, really sick (not saying you are) and the new pdoc guided the meeting with his questions. If you get in there and don't know what to say at least tell them you have what you believe to be depression and anxiety but don't know what to say. Good luck with your new pdoc. Hold firm on ECT. If you feel it isn't right for you, don't do it. Best wishes.

[bioChE]

The doc will know how to steer the conversation, get your history, and come alongside you to get where you need to be. Just trust they have your best interests in mind.

[Tkb1966]

My last pdoc was just a rx writer. He never listened to what I said. I was in his office no longer than 5 min. Only long enough to write rx. So I'm not feeling real confident about pdocs right now. My 1st pdoc was good. Always saw me for 20 min and seemed genuinely concerned and helpful. I just really want her to understand what's going on with me so she can give me the right treatment by I'm afraid as always that I won't t be able to express it. Not being thrilled about meds doesn't help either.

[~Christina]

Print out your post and let him read it.

Im sorry your hurting so much

[Unrigged64072835]

If you can write a brief statement about your depression and list all the meds you tried so far. That way your new pdoc will know what didn't work.

Hope you'll be able to feel better soon.

[Tkb1966]

Originally Posted by Fharraige

If you can write a brief statement about your depression and list all the meds you tried so far. That way your new pdoc will know what didn't work.

Hope you'll be able to feel better soon.

I did list all the meds I've taken but I can't remember why I stopped them specifically but most of them was because they didn't work. I don't know if this is common but my memory is shot! It happened when I started lithium and lamictal so I don't know which is the culprit. I've been on lamictal 10 yrs. Off lithium for years now.

Yes, I've been where you are. It sounds like you are losing hope that anything will help. I've been there and I was wrong. Help is out there and you just need to keep seeking it until you find what works. As another poster mentioned, you can print this post out. Everything you have written will be helpful for your doctor to know. Just tell them exactly what you've told us. (((Hugs)))