[boogiesmash]

So this is my second week and my mood has definetly lifted. Something my previous t, previous pdoc, current therapist and current pdoc have said is I gotta push and push hard. By that is my motivation. Not just to go to the gym, but to go socialize, and generally live. I've been giving that a lot of thought. In the past I was thinking I hope their is a med or trwTment to get to my previous self. Maybe new self. I am gonna try real hard to get to the gym and martial arts class today.
Has anyone been successful in "pushing?" I had a self esteem class and one of the topic is your negative critic and how to block them out or rephrase the thought.

[Sunflower123]

Sounds like this program is really turning out well for you. That's great news. Yes, I push hard. The only downside I have is that I can't always be consistent so it's sometimes two steps forward and one step back. I hope you continue to improve. Sending big hugs.

[wildflowerchild25]

I push myself in depression all the time. Mainly because I don't want to admit to anyone that I'm depressed so I soldier through as best I can. I don't remember if in my last severe depression I still socialized but I'm sure I did something. It really does help to get out of your own head for awhile.

The anxiety is what's killing me now and I'm pushing through that too. I'm listening to motivational music and I'm not gonna let it beat me. I've come too far.

As ~Christina has said on a few people's posts, you have to fight and claw and viciously attack your episode. You are worth it.

I'm glad you're feeling a bit better.

[Wild Coyote]

You seem to be getting a lot from this program!

I also do a lot of pushing myself. I'm hoping for the day when pushing isn't so difficult, when it becomes much easier.

It's great you are sharing some of what you are learning!


WC

[*Laurie*]

Yes, I constantly push myself or act 'as if.'

I'm so glad the program is working out for you!

[raspberrytorte]

I've pushed myself in the past. I had to. I couldn't just lay around. I had **** to do!

Sometimes pushing yourself too hard can lead to disaster though, so be careful with all of this pushing. Don't let it hurt you more than help. I'm happy it's helping you right now though and your IOP program is making you feel better!

I always pushed myself pretty hard and also didn't cut myself an ounce of slack. Then I broke for reasons which are unclear. I'm glad I pushed myself....it may or may not have contributed to my current condition.

We all need different things to get and be well. Some need to push more and some need to learn to push less. I've had to be more kind and understanding towards myself to get somewhat better. I had to stop holding my old standards over my own head. I'm sick, in pain and seriously struggling to survive. I kept thinking I had to push harder to be well but it kept backfiring and making me feel worse and more lost. I might always live in relative poverty which is a tough pill to swallow.....always terrified of the next financial disaster. and the only way to get better might be accepting this.

For you Boogie......well, you're LONELY and that will continue to tear you down until you fix it. You need to push. You need to socialize, to get out there and live. Working out is a great way to get endorphins and as you are not disabled, I encourage you to take advantage.

My doctors consider me "isolated" but I'm really not from where I stand. I have my husband, children, the very best friend to ever live, my dear sweet mother and more. When depressed I lock myself in the spare room and that's not healthy but most of the time I have plenty of people who can spend time with me whose company I thoroughly enjoy. This is my greatest gift and privilege. I want you to have a life filled with people and love and companionship and I think pushing for that will be well worth the effort. (((Hugs)))

[~Christina]

Push ! And when you feel you can't.., get pissed and yes....kick and claw like hell.

All great things take work.

You can do this, I'm glad your in treatment.