[Shazerac]

It never ceases to amaze me how my brain plays tricks on me. I've been stressing out a lot lately trying to decide if I need to up my meds...or be off my meds. Or move to a mud hut in Nepal. Blah blah blah. I've been in total denial.

Then today it hit me like a ton of bricks. MY SISTER DIED on July 5th, less than 2 months ago. I grieved for an "appropriate" amount of time. (According to those around me) and then I put it in a tidy little box and shoved it away. I guess I need to stand my ground and grieve however long I need to grieve and not let other people tell me how long I'm allowed to be sad.

I'm angry with my husband for telling me that I should be ok by now. I guess I'm angry with everyone else who thinks I should be back to "normal." I'm angry because I fell into that old comfortable habit of plastering on a fake smile and pretending to be ok when I'm not.

[Victoria'smom]

I'm sorry about your sister. Grieve as long as you need to.

[~Christina]

Grieve .. You lost a loved one

Shame on people telling you that you should be over it,

Dont feel like you need that fake face .. F that .

[Nammu]

Grief doesn't come with a timer, take as much time as you need.

[1978dd]

Originally Posted by Shazerac

It never ceases to amaze me how my brain plays tricks on me. I've been stressing out a lot lately trying to decide if I need to up my meds...or be off my meds. Or move to a mud hut in Nepal. Blah blah blah. I've been in total denial.


Then today it hit me like a ton of bricks. MY SISTER DIED on July 5th, less than 2 months ago. I grieved for an "appropriate" amount of time. (According to those around me) and then I put it in a tidy little box and shoved it away. I guess I need to stand my ground and grieve however long I need to grieve and not let other people tell me how long I'm allowed to be sad.


I'm angry with my husband for telling me that I should be ok by now. I guess I'm angry with everyone else who thinks I should be back to "normal." I'm angry because I fell into that old comfortable habit of plastering on a fake smile and pretending to be ok when I'm not.

My eldest son (28) died nine years ago and I still have times of grief. You'll heal when you heal!!

[Shazerac]

Thank you all for the validation. I shall now commence grieving at my own pace! I didn't even realize until I posted last night (and started crying while I was typing) that I was in fact angry with my husband. He's been asking me if I'm mad at him and if I was ok. It was getting annoying. I didn't even realize that I was hiding in plain sight.

[*Laurie*]

July 5th and you're supposed to be over it?! Uhm...NO.

My precious sister died on October 28th, 2016 and I'm still grieving plenty hard. I'm functioning, I do life, but the grief is immense. In addition - I think due in part to the grief - I am having health problems of my own all of a sudden.

Losing a sibling is a terrible, painful, frightening type of loss. It's very important that you do grieve, in your own time.

[Shazerac]

((( Laurie)))) is sorry for your loss. My sisters name was Laurie. Well it still is. She lives on in my heart ❤️

[Fuzzybear]

I'm sorry about your sister

And I'm sorry my posts aren't much help at the moment